MENTAL NOTE

"Though we cannot make our sun stand still, yet we will make him run."
Blue, resist the urge to use facebook. You can do it. Good luck.
Cats and dogs can be friends. So can cowboys and indians. So can we.
Why try to be the best when there's no hierarchy in heaven?

Saturday, August 16, 2014

What's in a Name?


How do you want to be remembered or don't you even care? 
Is it a frivolous wish to even want to go there?
Are we so vain we're trying make a name for ourselves
Longing to see yourself on one of those e-shelves ─
A virtual you free of charge when you're dead and gone?
Say it ain't so! A me.com, a here-I-am app at the break of dawn?
Who cares? Tell me who.
Is there a heaven for ants or was it made especially for you?
How do you want to be remembered or have you already given up?
Trying to fill a bucket when all you are is a cup?
Why am I writing this?
Does it bring eternal bliss or just a hiss?
Maybe you're more upbeat and Hope's a funny place:
It's right there in your mind until you've lost the race.
I hope you're right ─ I hope there's more than meets the eye.
I hope one day I'll hear you cry, for I am gone, you say, "Goodbye"
But why so sad when there is still a name?
A glorious name, a modest name, my name, your name, it's all the same.
Why try to be the best when there's no hierarchy in heaven?
Why try to make a name for yourself when the clock strikes eleven?
And it's getting late ─ tell me do you care?
How do you want to be remembered when the moment's there?

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A rose for Miss Stormy

116 comments:

  1. Remember me, for only this:
    That once in life, I blew a kiss
    To make you warm; create a smile
    And ease you from the pain a while.

    If I take you from insanity,
    Then I've achieved humanity.
    No matter if I reach my goals,
    If in friends' hearts, I've mended holes.

    Money, fame; Competitive battles
    Only make material shackles.
    The simplicity is where there's bliss,
    So remember me, for only this.

    XX

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    1. that was so delightfully lovely, Jules!

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    2. Jules, I'm pleasantly not surprised. I love it. I really, really love it. Did I mention I love it? Well, I do.

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    3. Why thank you boys....wanna be my models? ;)

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    4. Always. Also, did you know this post was inspired by yours? Of course it was.

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    5. Blue, will Jules paint us like one of them French girls? :)

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    6. I sure hope not. Unless I get to keep my cowboy hat.

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    7. or a tophat... if you was using it for your...... :)

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    8. Top? Haha you are incorrigible, is what you are....

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    9. Beautiful, Jules... so poignant...

      ~shoes~

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    10. Everything she does.... is beautiful, Shoes. You know that.

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    11. I love you guys. :) You're so nice to me.

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    12. You are wonderfully talented Jules. And just talented. And just wonderful.

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  2. OR....

    I wanna be famous, Oh how I do!
    I want them to shout, "Look! there goes Ju!"
    I'll have golden hair, that's ever so shiny,
    And fans will drool and whisper, "Cor blimey!"
    I'll be dressed head to toe in Christian Dior,
    And my posse and people will open my doors.
    A chauffer, a maid, a cabana boy
    And naked male models with which I can toy.
    I'll have a big house with and an infinity pool
    And a zillion friends 'cos I'm 'ever so cool'
    Supping from Ice statues of vodka and lime,
    When Hollywood parties are held at mine.
    And it won't matter that all of this is a fake
    When crocodile tears are shed at my wake,
    For they'll say to the world "We'll never forget her"
    Being famous for nothing, sweet Julietta!

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    1. Jules... Mistress of Poetry. Naked models to toy with eh? Will a couple of dozen do, you reckon?

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    2. Yes that should get me through the first few days :)

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  3. It's not my name on a bookshelf. It's the honor of what I've done for others. It's the 'Well done thy good and faithful servant.'
    I'm trying anyway.

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    1. Hey look who's here! Speaking of being honored... Well, there's nothing wrong with an honest attempt. ;)

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  4. As long as I leave the world a better place, give more than I take, then I think, in the end, I can call it a successful life. Asking to be remembered is greedy. People remember the name Hitler, it doesn't mean he made a positive impact.

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    1. Good point. I was tempted to say, So there's still hope for me, but that would probably reveal my inability to know when to shut up. You're one of the good guys, so the world will be a better place when you walk them golden stairs to Pickleopeland. Thumbs up for you, sir.

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  5. For changing people's lives even in the smallest of things. But you never know if the smallest thing you did is the biggest one to someone... And for being a positive influence....

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    1. I can always count on you to paint a much less grim picture of what I believe to be reality. It's true... you never know, but in the end I'm wondering: so what?

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    2. Dezmond took the words right out of my mouth.

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    3. better words than cake, Wendy :)

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    4. He did? He did? How rude. Cute but rude. Now, where's my cake?

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    5. Indeed, Dezzy! Can't have that nasty stuff going on my thighs :)

      Hi, Blue :)

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    6. What nasty stuff?! What nasty stuff?! Spell it out for me, for I'm a bit slow today ;)

      Hi, Wendy :)

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  6. I would love to be remembered as someone who lived mindfully, but without having given much thought about how I'll be remembered.

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    1. Yeah, maybe it's better not to think about it too much.

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  7. Helping others that are in need
    Not ones who just seek greed
    A little of this and a little of that
    They could just call me that dingbat
    What do I care? I'll be dead
    Whether an old fart or off with my head
    Still be long gone without a care
    Off on another adventure, hopefully, somewhere
    But well I'm here i guess I try
    Maybe a few will remember when I die
    But 100 years after that takes place
    No one will care anyway in the human race
    Unless you are Hitler or Einstein type
    The former you'd surely want to forgo the hype

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    1. The Cat To The Rescue Part I
      Wouldn't that show be fun?
      You know, on the big ole screen
      Dazzling every teen and bean
      Even when you're counting angels up there
      Pretending you still got hair
      Of course you won't care
      Off with your head... I sure hope not
      Must be kinda messy and um... a lot
      Let's stay a bit longer on this ball
      No need to fall or end up in the hall
      If only it were our call...

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  8. Do I really care a name just for me
    To be remembered by all and sundry
    What to do to deserve such accolades
    Looks like it is a wee bit too late
    What I need to do now to be famous
    I feel deep in my heart i don't deserve
    Need to be remembered a nice guy
    That is about enough and is not a lie
    And all I need is a friend like Blue
    That is quite enough that will do!
    He'll wish me 'have a nice week-end'
    Appreciate it coming from a friend

    Hank

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    1. To me you're Hank the Poetry Tank
      A nice guy alright and pretty smart too
      Ready to say things that are true
      Especially when I'm feeling blue
      Hey, how's life today?
      I hope you're doing okay!
      Maybe fame is not our thing
      But no need to be a hero or a king
      Being a friend is worth my more
      When you come a-knocking on my door :)

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  9. I don't think I'll be remembered, and that's fine. I hope that when I'm gone my children move on with their lives and don't think about me.

    Love,
    Janie

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    1. Listen... maybe you don't want me to even go there, but someone we know once made a special cake that made you instantly famous in my book. Plus you're forthright, which is rare in the Age of Political Correctness.

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  10. I would hope I would be remembered for being the crazy rat lady. The lady who showed people that rats are great pets and there's nothing to be afraid of because someone has one as a pet. I think I've changed a few minds, at least I hope so.

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    1. Well, you're stored in my long-term memory, that's for sure, Mary. But you're not crazy. That much I do know. Correct me if I'm wrong. Plus I'm not scared of (your) rats.

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  11. Ah yes. Yet another thought-provoking post from Blue.

    Well, to be honest, I would want to be remembered as someone with a good heart and a good mind. Someone who loved her family, and did her best to look after and rear her children. I would want to be remembered as a person who touched the lives of those who knew her, and did all she could to make their days a bit brighter. I want to be remembered as a bright spot in the universe--perhaps a tiny little star--something constant and reliable to help guide others along the way. I don't mind if I'm not remembered by many, I only wish to be remembered well by those who truly knew me in this life.

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    1. And remember you they will. There's no doubt about it, Candice.

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  12. With at least a funny tombstone

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    1. Well, let's see...

      Fact 1: Here lies Adam.
      Fact 2: He outlived all of his old blogger buddies (except Blue).
      Fact 3: He was R.

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  13. I never think in that dear, cause I live day by day but always think in my friends !
    And anyway why too many why and whats Blue???
    How is Angie?
    I talked with Azz yesterday by facebook, I miss her:)

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    1. Smart thinking, Gloria Dear! Why so many questions.... Well, I guess I can't help it. I must be insecure when it comes to matters of the universe.

      Angie's got a lot of pain, but she's very tough. Thanks for asking.

      As for Az, I miss her too, but we talk a lot. She'll be back. Eventually. :)

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    2. You are lucky:)
      Usually I talk with her in faebook:(

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    3. Facebook? What's that? :p
      I'm luck? Don't you mean..... she's lucky? ;)
      She's the best.

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    1. Oh my dear blue guy, now don't be shy
      hiding on that shelf, a story about yourself

      I once asked a musician friend of mine how would
      you like to be remembered..and he simply said "fondly"
      and I was captured by the power of that one word
      to be remembered "fondly" isn't that how we would
      all like to be remembered "with a warm heart"

      You are a beautiful blue guy, and I think you
      would be remembered for many things..your humor,
      your ability to overcome adversity, rising from the
      ashes to become a light to others in the journey.

      Thinking of you fondly right now...

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    2. Fondly... where do I sign? It sounds like a good deal, alright. What more can a person ask for than to be remembered with a warm heart. Thanks for your kind words. :)

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  15. You should really publish these! I'd like people to remember that I said "fuck" quite a lot.

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    1. Publish them and make a name for myself.... as in Dear Lord, "his mastery of poetry is deplorable"? Heaven forbid... I might be a hit and then what? Yes, you do say fuck a lot. You know what they say about people who keep talking about the same thing... ;) Okay, you can shoot me now or... say fuck.

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  16. As long as I don't have the very big bucks
    To leave a clinic for kids or a home for wayward ducks
    Names are soon forgotten unless it's Donald Trump
    Who carves his name on buildings and maybe on his rump
    A quote from Mrs. Clinton, what difference does it make
    When I say "so long" I know the earth won't shake

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    1. Maybe on his rump... for we don't really want to know. The earth may not shake but maybe the heavens will. You never know.

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    1. Thank you, Sandra. So kind of you to say that. I haven't forgotten about your ward.

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  18. I guess that this is something that I have not really given much thought. I am writing my novel so that I will be remembered forever after. I think we love in on in every person who loves us.... and that is enough.

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    1. Hi Robin. How are you today? I bet it's gonna be a wonderful novel too. People say we "live on in the people who love us" - well, the memory of us does. Who wants to live forever? (I'm raising my finger)

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  19. It would be nice to be remembered, though I don't expect to be. More important are the little things we do that make a difference to others. The smile, the word of encouragement, the hug.

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    1. Hi Lynda. Wonderful to hear from you again. I think 99.9% of all of us will be forgotten. What can I say... Does it matter? I don't think so, for what's in a memory... unless it has a positive effect on those who are still breathing? I love smiles. I love to make people smile even when I'm blue myself.

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  20. You know I usually have this phrase on my social media profile:
    "There's a book I wish to read but it hasn't been written yet. Then I must write it".

    So I guess that's how I wanted to be remembered - for something that i'd written. But well I haven't written anything that is significant so I might be remembered as the one who has not written anything significant. That sucks :(

    Tsk tsk this post made me sad Blue :( But it's one great piece and one great question...

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    1. Funny how people want to be remembered for something they once wrote, because what you write isn't you. It's a polished version of you, an edited reflection of your thoughts. But it sure is an achievement. I don't care about being remembered because when I'm dead, I'm dead. No vanity beyond the grave in my case. ;)

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    2. Yeah funny.
      And it's one good point - that when you're dead you are just simply dead!

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    3. So... let's have a drink while we're alive, right?

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  21. Remembered... haven't given that a thought... I've just gotten over accepting that death thing, so give me some time, hee hee heee

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    1. hee hee heee... I hear ya. Time is never on our side. Haven't you heard? ;)

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  22. So many deep questions and I don't have the answers. All I know is that I want people to celebrate my life rather than mourn my death. I want them to share funny stories and laugh while I'm laid out in the casket, hopefully looking pretty decent, even with all the wrinkles that showed my smile lines.

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    1. Me too. Celebrate my life rather than mourn my death... Preferably not on Facebook. How's life, Elsie? How are you coping with the pain?

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  23. I got the message. Thanks for caring enough to tell me the truth.

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    1. Don't mention it. Speaking my mind is easier than waking up.

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  24. I just hope when I die that people remember me fondly as that guy that warmed their hearts and made them laugh... not as that weird guy who cracked off-putting jokes and creeped everyone out.

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    1. That guy... what guy.... who am I talking to? Is it you, Bryan? No? Brandon? Yes? No? It's so confusing. I'd like to see the two of you creep me out. That would be an achievement to be remembered, alright. ;) Do I make you laugh and warm your heart?

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  25. Thank u for the rose. The ordeal is over. I just have to learn to really breath in freedom again. I can't even explain it. Me and the other will do lunch soon. We both work about a block within one another. I think we both needed time to adjust. How do these things happen? I felt like an oppressed woman whom finally was granted freedom. I found an outlet for my "need to take care" and this one will very much be needed. Street Dog Rescue. Those pups do need an advocate. They won't mind me taking an interest in them and helping them find a furever home. Having my roommate is gonna be such fun. I am so looking forward to it. Now, that I know the pups will get along. Everything has fallen in place. She will be gone on weekends when she does not have to work so it will just be company for a few nights and I need a gal pal like that. I saw a film recently and well it said it Rotterdam and it was so pretty. So so so very pretty. I was like Blue lives there somewhere. I wonder why I feel like I need to be needed. I am not insecure. I guess it is just ingrained in me from childhood.

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    1. Sounds like a wonderful plan. Furever.... haha good one. Congrats on your reclaimed and regained freedom. It must be great to see things fall into place. Do you know when I get insecure? When I have to jump out of a plane. Good thing I never have to.

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  26. Hope your day has been a good one.

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    1. Well, I gave a lecture, had some wonderful conversations with students and went back home. So, yeah, it's been a good day. Horrible rain, though. It is supposed to be summer. How are you doing yourself?

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  27. I don't really want fame...but when I die, I'd love to know that I touched at least a few young lives. That will be my legacy. Even if one child reads one of my books and it influences the way she thinks on a certain issue and she passes that onto her kids, that's HUGE.

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    1. That would be a legacy I could um... live with :) That's huge... You're so right.

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  28. When I go, I hope that I am remembered as a good mother, wife and friend. I ain't here for the fame or riches. I just want to love and be loved by a few. That's not so much to hope for, I think.

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    1. And so you will. There's no doubt about it. :)

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  29. The e book thing is over rated and there isn't much cash in that as you know I've been there. I have to say I want to be remembered as a good mom, wife, friend that is kind and loving and considerate but a smart ass all the same.
    Really you had to bring up the ants? I won that battle remember. :) and yes we are both beautiful.

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    1. Sounds like a plan to me, Melynda. And a good one at that. But as for the ants... yeah well it was traumatic so I couldn't help myself....

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  30. So case in point--

    When is it too much? When are we suppose to stop watching over our brother or sister?

    One of my detectives is dead. My age. So the assumption at this point is suicide.

    We knew he had troubled times.

    So--my question--

    Have there ever been times when u wished someone had been a little bit more watchful of how u felt? Silently ur heart crying out for attention.

    This is what I'm talking about my nosiness, my getting in ur business, my concern--

    Although it seems suffocating and whatnot might there be times when even if one does not respond to my emails, phones calls, texts, etc which is perfectly fine but at least for heaven's sake u know someone is thinking of u.

    Do u know allegedly there was a woman in her flat for three years dead and no one knew? There is a documentary out on this particular woman that I am trying to get my hands on so I can watch it.

    This are the things that flow through my mind at times. People hurting and lost and too afraid to ask for help or not wanting to be a bother.

    Whatever was my coworker thinking. We will never know. But just like Robin Williams he was the one always making us laugh and asking how we were doing. His face had a permanent smile. U know where ur eyes crinkle even when u are not smiling because u smile so much.

    I don't know I'd rather someone think I am "annoying" as hell which I am not that intrusive but geez louise why must people feel so sad that they take their own life.

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    1. Have there ever been times when u wished someone had been a little bit more watchful of how u felt? Silently ur heart crying out for attention.

      No. Not since I've been an adult, unless you mean to include my youth. I mean, when it comes to children, I think the story is entirely different. Of course it's good to know someone is thinking of you - thinking is always good - but not everyone feels comfortable having to answer the same question again: "How are you? Are you sure you are alright? Do you want me to do something for you?" In the end, you just have to let go. You can rescue the world. All you can do is ask if someone needs help maybe once or twice, and if they don't, well, they don't. We all have the right to not want to be helped. It's a side of the coin that needs to be respected too even if we don't want to because we care.

      Depression is an illness that can't be dealt with through laughter.

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    2. I disagree with u Blue.

      No. We cannot help everyone. And we are not suppose to help everyone. That is too much.

      And that question is stupid. "How are u?" I actually hate that question because truthfully it is not a question that is sincere. People use it as an opening to saying hi. And to me it says "I truly don't really care how u feel."

      What I am talking about is being watchful of people's moods. I spent three months sitting in our living room with my bff after her brother died unexpectantly. Do u think I asked her how she was doing? No. Not once. Just being present with her while she dealt with her emotions. She would look across the room at me and I would look at her and we would just start to cry. I cried for her. She cried for the loss of her brother.

      I don't think u understand me yet.

      Do u think I go around asking and being a pesky little woman? How are u doing? How are u doing today? Hell no I don't do that. I usually walk in a room and can "feel" that something is amiss. Do I care about how everyone feels? No. I do not. It doesn't mean I wish them ill will but I don't want to sit and listen to every Tom, Dick and Harry.

      The old, the young and the disabled very much need to be attended too and watched over.

      Others like u and myself well those close to us should be keyed into what makes us tick. U said u have a tendency to be blue and grumpy sometimes. Ur wife is probably keyed into how ur moods are.

      Me--people know when I am extremely quiet that two things have happened one is I'm sad the other is I'm mad. And my mind is turning at that time. AND THEY KNOW--do not ask her how she is doing at this very moment because if she is sad she will start crying and if she is mad she will be very upset and not in a good way. So they leave me alone and then when I have a few moments or days to deal with it then they come to me and ask is everything ok now. That is what I'm talking about. I think u think that I just bug the every living hell out of people. I don't. But I am observant. And I am watchful. And I know those close to me I know their moods. I know when to press and when to leave it alone but I do come back later and say is everything ok. And they know the door is open. The shoulder is there. The ears are willing to listen. And sometimes I have to say "Get up. Dust yourself off. And carry on down the road."

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    3. I think u think that I just bug the every living hell out of people. No, of course I don't. I wouldn't even know how to draw that conclusion since I don't know how you communicate with other people. But what I'm saying is - and all I'm saying is - sometimes people don't want us worrying about them. It makes them feel like a kid. Offering help is always a good thing in my book but where do we draw the line? That's all. Obviously when we're talking a brother or sister it's different from, say, a neighbor. I ask them, "Can I help?" once or twice, and when they say know, I say Okay, I hear you and that's the end of it. Maybe it's a guy thing... I don't know.

      Obviously I'm not telling what anyone should do, and that includes you.

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    4. It is a guy thing.

      A male friend called me last night. And I talked to him. Asking him I need the male perspective on things. I don't understand y'all.

      Men y'all are stronger physically. Women I think we are stronger emotionally. Although, u would think it different.

      But we talk to one another and communicate how we feel. And we get it out of our system. Y'all seem to hold it in. Don't want to discuss it.

      So we women have to guess what u are feeling and thinking.

      It is hard. Very hard sometimes to relate to what y'all are going through. Don't know if u need help and won't ask for it. Don't know if u don't want help and so we ask u as a precaution.

      Last night, I was in my own little world at the Coffeeshop. Someone wanted to take Jackson Brown. I couldn't let him go. It's in my blog why.

      I am used to having a good discussion/argument whatever u want to call it. Some are not. And that doesn't work out too well when one will talk about it and the other won't.

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    5. Women I think we are stronger emotionally.... Ah now it's my turn to disagree. I don't think women are stronger emotionally, but I do think they respond differently to their own emotions and those of others. I for one never break down - ever - but that's just me. I'd call that strong, though. I know how to control my emotions. The thing is... I don't want to talk about emotions. What's the point. I do care about opinions, but emotions don't mean that much to me - relatively speaking. Women don't have to guess what we are feeling. All you need to do is ask. Never guess. The direct way is the only way. Men usually don't like indirectness. It's just that women are often not content with the answer they get because you're looking at us through female glasses.

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    6. It's just that women are often not content with the answer they get because you're looking at us through female glasses.

      I luv it. So true Blue. So true.

      Control my emotions. I have to work on that one myself. However, I have improved greatly. And isn't that what our life journey is all about. Improving oneself. Understand one another and ourself.

      Mmm--emotions and feeling are very important I think.

      Opinions. Yes ,I would agree u do listen and respond.

      Asking does not always get an answer with men. Sometimes they don't answer and so we guess and then we sometimes guess wrong.

      Have u ever got tired of thinking so much!!! I think I am tired of thinking this week.

      My 95-year old friend until her dying day was still own her journey too. Still working on things. Bottomline is it does not end until the end.

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    7. It sure is. It only took me 40 or so years to realize it might be about improving ourselves. I am never tired of thinking. I'm a professor.I get paid to do so. ;)

      So true... that's when it ends. There's no doubt about it.

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  31. I don't care if I'm remembered forever. If I'm remembered at all, I hope I'm remembered for being a kind person.

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  32. Depression can't be dealt with through laughter.

    U are so right my friend.

    Depression has to be dealt with a counselor. Possibly medication. And the range of it varies from minor to severe. And those around u have to be PATIENT and UNDERSTANDING. And realize this is not something that u can say "go away" and it does.

    It has to be watched. And it has to be dealt with on a moment by moment notice. Sometimes is just takes time to pass. Either time alone to deal with it. Or someone just holding ur hand. Or just them knowing that u won't desert them when the depression comes. on.

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    1. A lot of people think being dow is the same as being depressed, which as Riot Kitty points out HERE is not the case. It doesn't even come close. Ever.

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  33. Coffins--

    They smack the shit out of your reality.

    In my mind and heart, I am preparing myself to see it soon.

    Will I cry. Definitely. I am not afraid to cry in front of people. And the truth is I can't control my tears. Thank the Lord I am a silent crier.

    Coffins--they devastate me

    Graveyards--they comfort me.

    Why is that?

    And I have to question myself in our recent days conversating "caring too much".

    Can u care too much? Yes. If ur life stops because of someone else's issues. But if ur heart hurts for another is that caring too much. I don't think so. I think that we are suppose to love one another. We are suppose to care what happens to one another. And at times we are suppose to reach out.

    I often wonder in that very moment they decide to take their life when they know it will be their last breath what are they thinking what are they feeling do they wish someone would walk in and stop them at that moment. Secretly are they hoping to be rescued. We won't ever know. Never.

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  34. Gawd. Have a drink Grumps. You know I only come out of hiding for you ;)

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    1. Will do, cous... Will do. So what are you pouring today?

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  35. I thought of u and ur uncle the other day. I have not been in the pool all summer. Go figure. One I couldn't find my bathing suit. And I did not want to go another when I had just bought one last summer. And I had been so busy. But the other night the pool looked so inviting. And no one was in it. So I told the guard I just wanted to get in for a moment. I promised I wouldn't stay long. And he let me. So I got in just in panties and tee shirt. Don't worry the panties were black and looked like a bathing suit bottom. And one one was there anyway. Just me and the pool. And it was heaven. Heaven I tell u. I was floating in the pool and looking into the sky and thinking "This is where Elvis was what 60 years or so ago. And the sky was just so open. I've said it before it is an oasis in the middle of downtown. I have just a few more nights before they close the pool. I'm hoping I can get in with no one else there. I need alone time.

    "I am tired of thinking." I have just been running running running. In a six weeks it will slow down. Once I get the studio packed, the wood floor in and the furniture picked up plus working lots of hours and taking care to take the pups on long walks. JacksonBrown is a hoot. He is very playful but gentle. Like a ballerina. He just flies through the air and sometimes flips. Professor is starting to flip and float too. They make me smile. U can't have a bad day when u have a pup or two in ur home.

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    1. Sixty years or so ago... Yeah you're so right. He must've seen the exact same stars unaware of how short his life would be. 42... go figure. That's not an age to die with or without a name. Oh I remember the seventies... the culture... the music... no internet.

      Enjoy your well-deserved alone time.

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  36. A quote I ran across today researching a mystery that I love by Lisa Turner "The Dead Gone Train." Fabulous reading.

    Here is the quote from Mark Twain: "Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he shows to anybody."

    Preparing for a church sermon and old timey hymns. I don't know if I said my friend is starting her own ministry to get back to the old days. Like my grandma in Greenwood, Mississippi used to attend. Churches are like businesses nowadays. My friend is a minister and she was saying certain things and I said "Open up your own ministry." She said, "I said if one more person tell me I need to open up my own ministry then I will take it as a sign." Well, I was the next person last Sunday when we were having lunch after church. I am looking forward to it. One is that I need to delve into the Word of God. When I do that whatever comes along in my life seems more tolerable and I find joy. I especially want to be in this state of mind and spirit. I need to behave big time.

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    1. All I can say is... do whatever works for you and brings you joy and peace.

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  37. Oops--

    "Everyone is a moon, and has a dark side which he never shows to anybody." Mark Twain

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    1. I have a dark side... and I should show it less often.

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  38. A novel, a song, a monograph,
    Really bad puns and making some laugh.
    I'm not a great person but at least I can try
    To leave a few traces before I should die...

    Although realistically my main contribution to the world will be bringing classical art to Google image hits for "nude men."

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    1. Who says you're not a great person? Don't let me hear you say that again.

      Nude men... so you wanna talk about it? ;)

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  39. I want to be remembered as a madman. Someone who did absolutely insane things for the sake of doing it.

    Ok, as long as I'm remembered for a unique reason, I can die happy.

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  40. It would be nice to be remembered as something good, but I know I'll probably be remembered as that one weird freak, if I'm remembered at all. I try to be a good person, but any oddities or occasional slipups someone has gets remembered over any contributions people make.

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    1. Tunnel vision often causes the ignorant to label special people as "freaks".So...

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  41. I thought I had already commented here...I don't remember...I won't leave without a trace. I won't be erased.

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    1. No you hadn't, which is kinda shocking for I was led to believe that Dr. Who fans remembered everything ;) Of course you won't be erased. Just the thought of it makes me sick.

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  42. I'd like to be remembered fondly by my children and grandchild/ren. Beyond that, I'm sure no one will care. And that's fine by me. :)

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    1. That goes for all of us except David Walston, who refused to be erased. He needs to teach me how to do that. Well, since I don't have children, I will be forgotten within a week or so. And that's fine by me. Thanks for stopping by. Good night and don't let the bed bugs bite.

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  43. And in the end, it all comes down to a little box of ashes holding ur once healthy strong body.

    So sad and to see his mom in such pain.

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    1. Sad... Don't you mean depressingly heartbreaking beyond belief? I know I do. Death is a terrible invention in my book. It's so barbaric and cruel.

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