MENTAL NOTE

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Saturday, October 11, 2014

When Thinking about Energy Tires You Out

I've lost my sense of humor. It doesn't come natural anymore. When I crack a joke, the only thing that cracks is me. It feels mechanical. Not natural by a long shot. It's because I've been so ridiculously tired these past few months that even the hint of a smile would break my face.

Do you know what it's like to be chronically tired? It's like when you're tired and then at some point it isn't funny anymore. Haha okay enough is enough. But it never is. I hope you can't relate.

See, I've been blessed with a special kind of tiredness. I call it a jetlag that never ends. It's kinda hard to imagine what that's like, I suppose, but I've grown so tired of being tired. I can't go to the gym to boost my energy level 'cause that would only make things worse. I snore like a whore. I take more pills than Schwarzenegger in heat. 'I need a pill! I have to take decisions that will destroy California!' Well, he nearly succeeded, and I'm well on my way to destroying something too ─ yes, my body. And the fun part is that, unlike Mr. Bicep, I don't even have to move a muscle.

Right now I'm wearing my sexy PJ's, staring at a screen that says I'm staring at a screen. I wish my face didn't hurt so much. It feels like some undefinable rubber. The kind you don't need when you're on a date. I wish the world wouldn't tremble on me like a heat haze. I wish I wish I wish for enough is never enough. Maybe I need a glass of milk. My special milk to go with a special kind of tiredness. Maybe there's a plant in a jungle that's already been burned down the ground that could cure me. So technically the plant's not there anymore. Like my speedos.

I know... I'm not making any sense. So I should perhaps just try and locate my mancouch and snore like a whore. Yes? Okay. Love you too. Now where's my couch? Milk? Yes, that too.

Tarzan eat your heart out!

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  1. Eat papaya, dried, fresh or leaves. I'm not kidding. I suppose you have tried everything but a gal on YT said she cured her sarcoidosis by eating papaya. I always eat a small handful of the diced/dried papaya after meals.

    I've known tired too and I remember how good the sofa or the bed looked. Look up the papaya thing if you haven't yet tried it.

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    1. I know. I ate a pound of dried papaya a couple of days ago. The Docs have become less optimistic about curing me, but that's alright.

      Thanks. You're so kind. Say hi to Mr. Plant for me, will ya? :)

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    2. if papaya really is helpful for your problem, Blue, you must eat it in large quantities not once a week. For example, when you eat certain things to cure cancer, it is done in extreme quantities. Like eating two pounds of carrots a day, or two pounds of lemon or whatever helps. And you have to stick to it.

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    3. Are you telling me to eat a pound of papaya a day? (And spend the rest of the day on a special seat?) I eat a lot of fucoidan too. The thing is... it's getting a bit pricey.

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    4. I know but that is how those things work.... The extreme exposure to vitamins and minerals is what does the healing, you just need to explore a bit and find the right veggie, plant or fruit.

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    5. And explore I shall, my friend. So far fucoidan has had an invigorating effect on my well-being. It's just that my aim so far has been for my health to remain stable, which is not an easy thing to achieve when you're a sarco patient. Thanks for your advice. I appreciate it.

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  2. I'm sorry you're tired all the time. I'm sure you've tried everything, but energy drinks? B12 shots? (And there's an energy drink that combines the two if you really need a boost.)

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    1. No, I'm afraid I have a special problem that renders a lot of energy boosting foods and drinks as worthless as boat in the desert. How are you doing, Alex?

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  3. Why do you work so much if you're chronically tired, Randy? Can't you slow it down a bit?
    Have you tried changing your diet and going totally natural? So many health issues, even the serious ones, have been cured by people going totally natural in their diet, with tones of magical plants, veggies and shakes (the drinkable ones not the body shakes).
    With a total change of diet you could boost your immune system and make it work for you

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    1. I totally agree. I've never visited a western doctor in my life and I'll be 85. I've always eaten naturally and stayed away from the processed foods. A few years ago I did have some problems but I went on Gerson Diet and that is mostly carrot juice and green drinks. Not that I'm recommending Gerson because then you wouldn't be the Blue Man, you'd be the orange man. I drank 10 glasses of carrot juice a day and about as many green. But it worked. In natural medicine we don't use the western names for illnesses an that is why I never heard of yours.

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    2. Well, let's see... bills? Yeah, that must be it. I've been natural as you put it since 2011. It does help in the sense that my balancing act (ill... not ill... ill... not ill...) has become somewhat less of an impossible trick, say, but even when I'm feeling good in terms of being a sarco patient and all, it still sucks a ton. It's like watching the world through a glass, and sometimes it's like a slow-motion scene in a cheap movie. A jetlag that never stops. And when I get an attack... well, let's not even try and describe what that's like. After all, it's Saturday and I should be walking outside enjoying the beauty of our beloved planet. Maybe not today. How do you like my red speedos?

      Thanks, Dezz.

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    3. Ah there you are again. The Gerson Diet? Randy the grumpy Orange Man.... It does have a ring to it.

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    4. See, Blue, Manzanita even tried the carrot thing that I mentioned above!
      I'm not saying that your particular illness can be cured miraculously over night, but you never know, maybe somewhere around the world some people did it by using some natural substance in extreme quantities you just have to explore it around the net or ask some natural healers if you have them around there.

      Currently popular here is drinking tones of parsley tea for a week or two (you boil tones of its fresh leaves with some lemon) and that is a strong diuretic that will free you from excess water in your body along with all the toxins. And I've recently heard about Manzanita's carrot diet too. And our blogging friend Melissa Bradley is currently intaking tones of vitamin C in order to free herself from cancer.

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    5. Methinks Dezzy and Manzanita talk sense.

      Nothing ventured,nothing gained, Blue.

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    6. I've done my fair share of research, and so far the one thing that helps a bit is pure fucoidan. The problem is I've got two types of sarcoidosis - the one affecting the lungs and the one affecting the brain. My lungs are more or less stable - meaning I'm extremely tired but not incapacitated - but my brain keeps playing tricks on me, with or without tons of vitamin C.

      You people are great. Thanks.

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  4. Sadly know the feeling all to well, like a deep dark hole in hell. But anything can be fixed if you are willing, although some of the stuff needed to be done isn't thrilling. Have to ditch the GMO, Gluten, Fluoride, Sugar and anything else processed at your sea. It is all garbage completely. Then make like a dog or a cat and de-worm yourself every 3 months, stat! No joke there as those little bastards are everywhere. If you can find a peroxide IV nearby, that will make all the suckers die. Although you might turn orange like me, as I eat tons of carrots at my sea lmao orange guy doesn't have the same ring. Could be an oompa loompa at my wing. Then once you have that down, do P90X at your town. Most of all screw work. Stay at home, go broke and lurk lol also bed of nails works on the back. Do that, plastic representation, at my shack. Laser IV is another one, that can sure help get things done. Can't concede or nothing will take seed.

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    1. Grumpy Loompa! Say it ain't so. But what's that peroxide IV you mentioned? Sounds like something you'd have put in your hair in the mid-eighties...

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    2. lol nope, just stick out your arm and get a poke, then it goes in and you just sit there like a bored bloke.

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  5. Hi Blue,

    I know that tired feeling all too well. It can be so draining but, don't give up as there is something out there that can help. If, I had given up I'd be in the other world and not here talking to you.

    A woman healer recently told me about the benefits of grapefruit her nephew had cancer and having a terrible time and then a natural healer said to eat grapefruit in large quantities and he did, guess what his cancer is in remission and the doctors are mystified.

    You may be tired but, you are looking fit blue guy in those red speedo's...smiling here of course..I think you work too hard always doing too much. Take some of the load off your back and try to relax..lol..I should adhere to my own advice.

    Just don't give up as life has it's ups and downs ...

    Us Blue people have to stick together..

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    1. I work too hard, I know, but bills need to be paid. We all know what that's like, I guess. But I will never give up. Didn't do so in 2011 when I could barely crawl or breathe, won't do so in the future. Much too unwilling to die, you see. Yep, we have to stick together. You don't give up, I don't give up.

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  6. Who's there?
    (In reply to your "knock knock". And yes I'm still alive!

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    1. Good. I was wondering where you were. Bora Bora?

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  7. So...you're chronically tired, are you? I'm really sorry to hear that. It sucks to be tired when you don't want to be tired. It also sucks when you need to be tired, but you're just...not. At all.

    The human body is really extraordinary in the way that it works, but it can also be highly frustrating when it stops working properly. I think the medical community needs to stop worrying about trying to make multiple pills that cure ED and do more work on stuff that can help chronically exhausted people like my friend Blue. You know, that magical pill or protein shake that will work when all other "pep up" substances won't do the trick. And also cures every possible human ailment. And gives your hair more bounce and shine...I think I may have gone too far here, but you see my point.

    Hang in there, Blue. You've got people rooting for you!

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    1. Ah just to hear you say I'm your friend Blue makes me feel so much better. Thanks. I see your point... it's crystal clear. Yes, I've been chronically tired for three years now, but the Docs still haven't given up on me. That's a good thing, right? I just wish you could send me a magic cookie :)

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    2. Cookies I can make, but I'm fresh out of magic. I'm also out of milk, so I'll add magic to the list for when I go to the store today and send a bunch of magic cookies with one of my Carrier Seagulls.

      It's definitely good to have doctors who don't give up on you, and do all that they can to help you. It can really do a lot to restore one's faith in the medical profession as a whole.

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    3. Fresh out of magic? How did that happen? A Carrier Seagull... is that a fact? Well, that's something to look forward too.

      Yeah, I'm lucky the way the Docs've been treating me these past few years. Except for this neurologist. I told him the world was trembling on me, and he looked at me like I was a nutcase. Other than that, it's all good.

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  8. I'm sorry that you are tired and unwell, Blue. Keep us posted if anything works - then bottle it. Then sell me some ...

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    1. You'd get it for free. Wait... why would you need it?

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  9. Chronic tiredness, an endless sense of jet lag, has to be absolute torture. I hope you get a weekend or at least a sick day? Also, I don't believe that "sexy PJ's" actually exist.

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    1. Redefine sexy and you WILL discover sexy PJ's. No? Normal jet lags make me laugh. Yeah, next week I'll have a few days off. Something to look forward too.

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  10. Do whores really snore? And what is a mancouch, as opposed to a womancouch? Is it a brown tweed?

    But seriously, I am so sorry you are so chronically tired. How about you tuck yourself in with your milk, and I will sing you a lullaby? And then I will sprinkle you with magic pixie dust and when you wake up, you will be fresh, full of energy and will have found your sense of humor.
    If only it worked that way, huh? I would do it if I could!

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    1. Yep, according to wikisnore.com they do.It is brown but I'm not sure what it's made of. Some kind of manfriendly cotton, I think. A mancouch is where men end up after getting married.

      A lullaby AND magic pixie... Kianwi you sure know how to get my attention. It would be um... refreshing to wake up fresh and full of energy. Thanks :)

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  11. Hi Blue...
    Do you know what is wrong with you?
    Is that why you have tried all these kooky things?
    Or......are you pulling my leg?
    And....you are just tired.....
    Seriously....

    Cheers!
    Linda :o)

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    1. Hi Linda! Yep, I sure do. I was diagnosed with Sarcoidosis (lungs) in September 2011, with made me cough my lungs out literally 24/7 and drained all of my energy. Last year I was diagnosed with neurosarcoidosis, which makes my world tremble and my ears (well, brain) hear SHHHHHHHHH all day long, especially at night. So, no, this time I'm not making things up. But I'm still alive! Ha!

      How are you today?
      It's October, no not May.

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    2. Yes it is October....
      I am sorry to hear of this...I had no idea....
      So....not a ringing, but a SHHHHHHH?
      How annoying...any cure for this?

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    3. "...made me cough my lungs out literally 24/7 and drained all of my energy."

      Holy Crap...

      ~shoes~

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    4. Oh dang, that's rough. Hope you feel better.

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    5. Hi Linda! Yep, no ringing... just SHHHHHHHHH. I often need to keep my windows open so I can enjoy the noise of the cars instead of that noise inside my head. No cure.

      Shoes... Holy crap just about covers it.

      Thanks, Mary. I'm not but I've seen worse days.

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    6. it is interesting that tinnitus is usually something that doctors offer no cure against. I also sometimes have buzzing in my ears due to the heart pills I take, but it is probably like a bird song compared to your bluebuzz, Blue

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    7. It's a horrible sound, really. SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I just need to open the windows to hear the noise of cars and people instead. But... I still look good. Um...

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  12. I am very tired. I'm also in mourning. The Hurricane has a type of chronic fatigue.

    Love,
    Janie

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    1. And how to deal with that chronic fatigue? You're in mourning? :(

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    1. Can't you cure me? Isn't there some old remedy you know about? No?

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  14. Blue, my blog pal, you are honest about the feelings and garbage that you're going through. That's a biggie. I didn't want to be sick all the time. I hated life. Fibromyalgia does weird things but attacks individual issues... so no two Fibro patients are the same, nor can be treated the same. What I'm saying is... there is something for you. Hold your head up when you can. Lay it down when you need to. The very thing that ended up helping me the most was never suggested by anyone. The doctors, and I had seven of them, were surprised. Details don't really matter... you have a diff issue than me.
    I will share that the best thing for pain is M&M's. Peanut. No joke!!! They're also good for sleep. When I broke my back I had three mm's about every couple of hours. I got better because I felt like moving around. So I tackled the pain first.. then one thing after another until today... I no longer take 23 scripts. I weigh 75 lbs less. The foremost Fibro specialist told me in 2001 I'd be dead in 5 years, if I didn't follow his every instruction. Damn near killed me to follow so I gave up. Let's die happy, Dixie! Chucked all his instructions. MMs for pain; gaiufenesin for basic cellular health, ginger ale for nausea, no more diet products, as I was allergic to most. (So much for no details, sorry.) Took Benadryl for withdrawal from antidepressants... and anxiety attacks.
    Get better one day at a time. I've said enough now. Love to you & family.

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    1. That's quite a story, Dixie. Will hold my head up and when I'm fast asleep (which I am more often than I'm willing to admit), I will dream of holding my head up (even if I don't remember any of my dreams). It's the thought that counts, right? He said you'd be dead in 5 years? Just like that? M&M's for pain... who would've thought... How did you come up with that idea? I use ginger ale for nausea too., in fact anything that has ginger in it. But how are you doing now?

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    2. Doing great. Down another 22 pounds this year... almost back to the childhood figure. Maintenance is key with all my stuff. I have a card file with 3x5 index cards. Sounds crazy, but when I get sick I look in the box to see what I did before, to help me again. Best suggestion I ever got from any doctor. I also add stuff like M&Ms and what they do for me. Fibro wrecks havoc with memory at times - this is a solution that works for me. Thanks for asking - stick with those good dreams Blue!!!

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    3. Oh, you're still thinking about energy? Bless your blue heart. Gosh with all the comment activity... well, I'd love to be this bushed! Mwaaa.

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    4. grated ginger mixed with lemon and honey cures so many problems, for some people even cancer! And, yet, I've never tried ginger... we don't have it much here.

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    5. Dixie, it makes perfect sense to me you'd look in that box to see what you did before. I remember keeping a log myself back in 2011, and one day I noticed I was losing a pound a day. You bet that got me scared, alright. A pound a day doesn't keep the Doc away... You do, do you ;)

      Dazzling Dezzmeister I drink ginger all the time. So, you don't know what it tastes like?

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  15. I don't have much to add to other peoples' constructive comments and suggestions. So I'll just say I'm sorry you are suffering, and I hope you find a way to feel better and rest soon. *hugs*

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    1. Thanks for the hugs. What more does a person need (except money and good health)?

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  16. I feel you Blue, and am so sorry you are going through this. About 4 years ago I was at my lowest in terms of health. My ulcerative colitis slammed me hard and even the doctor was like- "look, I can't do anything else to help you." I was dehydrating myself at rapid speeds, and the fatigue. My God! I think I slept for a year straight. I am not even joking. My husband and I look back on that time and talk about how we both were pretty much just waiting for me to die. It was that bad. Being constantly tired is no joke. I still get hit every once in a while, but thankfully, I am good for the most part now. I hope you are able to get to the root of what's going on here and find some relief soon. *Hugs* to you, my friend.

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    1. Thanks for the hugs, Theresa. Did you say ulcerative colitis? Now, I bet you slept for a year. It's pretty much the only thing you can do. Being tired 24/7 is no joke, alright. Sometimes when I drive to work, I just feel like closing my eyes. Good thing I'm mentally strong, so I always manage to keep them open. Don't want to endanger other people, you know, but the fatigue's always there. The root of sarcoidosis is shrouded in mystery and mysery. Good to hear you're doing so much better now. Let's keep it that way, my friend :)

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  17. So sorry you're suffering! Wish I had some helpful suggestions, but as Jon Stewart would say, "I got nothin'." Sift through the tips above, and hopefully you'll come up with something that helps!

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    1. Sarcoidosis is Superblue's kryptonite. Instead of making me green, it's keeping me blue all day long. But hey.... I still look good. No? ;)

      How's life?

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    2. Well, when people ask "How's the world treating you?" I reply "Like a baby treats a diaper." (Stole that line from an episode of Cheers.)

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  18. Blue, sorry that u are so so so so very tired. And I don't know how to help u my friend across the blue sea. I don't have any words of advice. I don't have any magical solutions to send ur way. I can just say that I'm sorry u are having to experience this terrible illness. And that u are in my thoughts and prayers.

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    1. Don't worry about it, Miss Stormy Marples. I'll find a way to put a smile on my face. There's this neighbor of mine who lives across the street - the Docs told him the other day there's nothing else they can do for him. He's got lung cancer you see, and he'll probably suffocate to death between now and, what, half a year. He's neighbor number two! How's that for a sobering thought? What I'm trying to say is... he's got a far worse deal than your blue friend, so who am I to even complain?

      Thanks for the thoughts and the prayers.

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  19. Go get some rest, man, and who cares if you snore like a whore! (I have some super glue if your face cracks. Just let me know if you need it.) ;0)

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    1. Hahaha sound advice from Sherry! Now, where's that super glue? (You made me laugh...)

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  20. If a smile would break your face, Blue, I'd better not make you laugh . . .

    I have a suggestion . . . hibernate, man!! like some clever animals do throughout winter. They are so smart they never even get cold and they never have to pay any heating bills either . . . and they wake up refreshed and ready to go in the Spring . . . .

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    Eat multi vitamin capsules every day to keep the doctor away..

    Failing this eat plenty of greens to boost the iron content in your red corpuscles in yer blood. That makes them carry much more oxygen around your body and that makes yer feel more alive. And being a clever clogs your brain is probably 'hogging' more of it's usual 30% oxygen uptake . . . .SLOW down man and take up Yoga, Meditation, or tiddly winks and less of this brain demanding stuff yer doing day after day.

    Top of the pops is Spinach and other iron rich foods are on this website:
    http://www.webmd.com/diet/iron-rich-foods


    Or/and . . . take that lovely wife of yours and go on a long holiday away from it all ~ somewhere nice and sunny

    Hope you feel better soon Blue . . .
    Your Brit mate . . . Eddie

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    1. Thanks for all your advice, Eddie. I apreciate it. I think I could do with a bit more iron. I'm feeling a bit rusty, you know? I've been a bit on the slow side too this week. So much work to do. Anyway, hibernating sounds like a plan to me. Would that be in a little shack on Bora Bora? Would there be plenty of soft pillows and maybe a little cocktail on the side? I can sip and hibernate at the same time. I'm pretty sure of it.

      A holiday? I wish haha. Maybe next year.

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  21. I've been there. Working out actually will give you more energy in the long run, even if it's hard. I'd say also take a look at all that you are doing, because you're probably stretching yourself too thin (and not in the yoga way!) Hang in, blue amigo.

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    1. Yeah... I am. And, no, not in a yoga or yoda way either. How did you guess? ;)

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  22. Hi there, my friend... I was hoping to make a cornucopia of smart assed comments... but not this time.

    I trust you are feeling better...

    ~shoes~

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    1. I'd love a cornucopia of smart assed comments, Shoes. Not today? Hey, how are you doing? Looking forward to a X-mas break? I was in some department store the other day and, I swear, they were selling X-mas trees and X-mas decoration. That's when I knew I had to b in the Twilight Zone, right?

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  23. Have you had your thyroid checked. It's just a blood test and if it's low it can lead to fatigue...tiredness.

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    1. The problem is called Sarcoidosis, Mary. There's no problem with my thyroid - well, the last time they checked. Knock on wood.

      How's life been treating you?

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  24. Red Bull!!! Wait...that's probably bad advice!

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    1. But it made me smile. You know I only drink Blue Bull.

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  25. I'm wearing my sex pajamas right now too. Just one of those migraney kinda days. Blasted thunderstorms.

    But, I can truly relate to feeling so tired you don't think you can stand up straight…so you don't, you just kinda move through life. When I had liver issues, I was exhausted beyond any comprehension. I'd sleep, wake up, and feel like I hadn't slept a wink. It was terrible and I hate that you're going through it, Blue. I hope things improve for you sooner rather than later!

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    1. Ah of course you are. And how stunning they look on you. Migraines should be forbidden, Elsie, really. Does it also blur your vision? Exactly: you go to bed, woke up, and it's like you haven't even slept. Your eyes are so heavy you need to wear sunglasses...

      Thanks. One day at a time. :)

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