MENTAL NOTE

"Though we cannot make our sun stand still, yet we will make him run."
Blue, resist the urge to use facebook. You can do it. Good luck.
Cats and dogs can be friends. So can cowboys and indians. So can we.
Why try to be the best when there's no hierarchy in heaven?

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Stardate 11012015

Blue's Log, stardate 11012015. My destination is still largely unknown, as is my destiny, yet I woke up this morning feeling strangely reinvigorated, determined to do something positive and kind. I am at this time unaware of any secret force that may help explain this sudden change in chemical composition, but I'm hopeful that one day I may see the light as the vessel that is me keeps exploring new territory. 

Could it be that hope is our greatest treasure? Doesn't hope encompass the space that we inhabit, and us? We travel and we are. We seek and we are. But who are we when there's no path to tread, no new horizon to reach out to? What is the use of staying lost? Could it be that we are the creators of hope, the architects of our own trajectory? Here I am, all alone in my rocket, lying on my bed while traveling at the speed of light, listening to the sound of my own voice. I do not know where it comes from or if it'll ever stop talking to me. I hope it won't.

There have been many, many moments of frustration. First star on the left? First star on the right? It would be so hard to choose. Meanwhile, I would pick up speed and pretend going fast meant deluding the universe into believing I knew where I was heading and for what reason. I've come to realize that speed makes us vulnerable, not powerful or meaningful. I've come to understand that busy does not equal strength. I see now that traveling at a slower speed allows me to enjoy the ride just in case my final touchdown turns into a final crash. This rocket took a long time to build and though I could've done a better job, it's home and this is me.

I have to set course for different planets instead of wanting to fly away from them. The older I get, the more I know the joke's on me so I might as well join in on the laughter. It's time to meet the friendly locals and ignore the ones that poison the mind. I need to slow down.

First star on the left.

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126 comments:

  1. Stop and meet the natives. Doesn't matter which planet. Make a wrong choice, you can always change it.
    Faith, hope, and love are the three greatest things in the world. And without hope, there is no purpose, no meaning, no reason to go on. So many are without hope today. They don't believe.

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  2. I can't imagine life without hope. It's why I have my faith. Slowing down is good, too!

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  3. But but the hope of being rich
    Doesn't scratch that itch
    The cat just gets fleas
    They do not please
    Visit the natives you say?
    Will they probe away?
    Those aliens can be mean
    Bounce around you like a jumping bean
    Maybe aliens will steal Blue's shoe
    In book number two
    A slower pace is grand
    Works for my land
    All the go go go
    Can fly out the window
    I hope for that
    See? I'm a hoping cat
    Hopefully in hope
    Hope can cope

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    1. A hoping cat you are
      As rare as a furry star
      No hope of being rich
      Ain't that a bitch?
      You may get old though
      At your kitty cat show
      Remembering some grumpy goo
      Who bequeathed you a blue suede shoe
      You never know
      How things are gonna go
      So cheer up, Cat
      On your rhyming mat
      You can still roast a flee
      In the place to be

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    2. Sometimes you know
      How things will go
      You can get that feeling
      From the dealing
      Not even a pair
      And you're screwed at your lair
      But maybe a flush
      Will make you gush

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    3. Maybe is the magic word
      Could it unblur a life that's blurred?
      How about perhaps
      Will I need some Schnapps?
      Will it make me smile?
      Will it take forever or just a while?

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    4. Forever and while
      Can be on the same dial
      Perhaps with maybe and if only
      Is sure never lonely

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    5. Don't say if only when Mary's around
      She may still not like that particular sound
      Maybe perhaps or possibly too
      I will one fine day find my shoe

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    6. What about "getting to it"
      Will that one make her hiss and spit?

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    7. That she'll like a bit more
      At her Las Vegas shore

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    8. Good she doesn't get the craps
      Taking any gambling laps

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  4. And always beware of the Klingons and the Ferengies!
    Haven't I always told you enjoying the ride is the key?

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    1. now, can I be the Beta Zoid on your ship?

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    2. how many enlightening, blissfulfizing, powerizing, dezzifying smiles of mine? :)

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    3. All of them, of course. I don't want to seem greedy.

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    4. I want to go on the ship with Dezzy too.

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    5. Buckled up and ready to go, Blue!

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    6. First star on the right?

      It's weekend, Wendy!

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    7. there is no weekend in galaxy, captain Blue! Just keep us away from Klingon Birds of Prey! And Borg cubes.... naturally.....

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    8. will be sending you positive energy this evening, Blue! Don't let them take away your force!

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    9. I look like robocop from outer space. A B-movie, obviously.

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    10. did they let you out of the Death Star? No? Are all the nurses alive and with limbs on their places? Sends us an info when they let you out!

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    11. I'm still in one piece. Nurse! Nurse!

      Now, all I need to do is wait. Two weeks.

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    12. Wait where? At home or there? Don't tell me they're keeping you there for two weeks? What? What the what? Nooooo!
      Did they give you a sponge bath?

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    13. At home. It's cheaper that way.... No sponge bath either. What is this world coming to, right?

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    14. so you're just waiting for the report, you're not still wearing the Dart Vader mask? Was it horrible? Did they find aliens in your brain?

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    15. Strangely enough I didn't feel like Darth Vader. It wasn't horrible. Just annoying, is all. As for the aliens in my brain.... let's wait and see. My guess would be yes.

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    16. not that we didn't know it already.... yes?
      How come they did it on a Sunday? Celebrity treatment to avoid papanazis?

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    17. It was the earliest option so it just picked it.

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  5. I'm surprised how many people don't believe in hope. They think we're just a bunch of animals that mate and pass on genes and nothing more. Personally, I think that's pretty damn boring. And bleak. Give me hope any day. And a ray gun. If Star Trek has taught me anything, it's that aliens either want to kill me or f*** me. Or both.

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    1. Aliens with great taste. ;) Boring is boring.

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  6. Read somewhere that if someone loses hope; they basically lose the desire to live. I find the older I get, I do enjoy slowing down and also need those times of rest.

    betty

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    1. I've seen it with my own two eyes Betty. :)

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  7. Without hope there is no hope. Take your time, languish in the senses and don't forget to laugh at yourself. That about sums it up, right? :)

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  8. We talked about hope last week at church. One woman said hope is what gets you out of bed in the morning. I sure wouldn't want to go through some of the things I've faced in my life without hope. Best of luck, whichever path you choose.

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    1. Thank you, Snowcatcher. I could use a bit of luck :)

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  9. It's hope that allows us to deal with adversity. It grants us space to love, to dream, to forgive. It's not like the certainty that spring will follow winter, it gets us going

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  10. Long time ago I learned NOT to do hope. My guru's favorite phrase was, "Expectation makes frustration." He was the real deal..... looked like Gandi in dress, etc. I brought him flowers or fruit (more fruit, he loved fruit) and I sat on the floor listening to his stories. He wouldn't accept money.

    Today I saw an old movie, "Time after Time" with Malcolm McDowell who played
    H. G. Wells who time traveled after Jack the Ripper. They always had the big old
    iron key that started the time travel machine. Ha It always looked like some kind of
    carriage but it got them where they wanted to go and no one had to wear shrink-wrapped pants. I would travel with my Guru. Truth.

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    1. You learned NOT to do hope. Could you tell me a bit more about that, Manzanita? You've got my undivided attention.

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    2. Blue
      I'm usually walking one direction and everyone else is going the opposite way. Appears it is still happening.

      The word "hope" seems to have different foundations. For instance, if I send you a letter and I "hope" it reaches you, whatever happens to that letter after I put it in the mailbox is out of my control. Then it's up to the postal workers and I can "hope" you get it.

      Then "hope" is also used as a kind of spiritual entity, all in itself. People say they can lose everything but they still have "hope." It just sits there, like an expectation that something good will come to them from out of no where. ....like welfare. I know too, that at this point, people will bring their religion into play and argue that prayer will send them a miracle so for some, prayer and hope represents the expectation they will get what they want without any apparent effort.

      The reason my Guru was brought to mind, is because he used to tell me that "expectation brings frustration." (I notice you used the word, "frustration" in your post, too). So what if I just hope or pray for something I want..........as if I hope so fervently that sweat is running off my brow AND I don't get what I want. Isn't that a frustration that would almost drive most people nutty? I have all the tools right inside of me to accomplish whatever it is that I want. Everyone does.....so why don't they use it? Beats me.

      For instance, I have zip math background but I'm trying to learn how to put together the frequencies that heal. Even my engineer sons are too busy to help me, but I know I am capable of learning exactly what I need to know and I will understand it shortly. So there is no need to clutter my mind with frustration.

      This is really 3rd-grade stuff but most people forget how easy life can be.

      Enough.....and back to the light-hearted. When I get all my frequencies in a row (like ducks lol) I'll be able to tell you how you can cure yourself of snoring. (almost there now). Then......no more couch. LOL

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    3. What a wonderful comment, Manzanita. I agree 100% that we shouldn't wait for something to happen. Get off those butts and make things happen. It's the only way. The way I see it, we are the architects of our own trajectory and no one else. But when you're blue like me, getting off your butt isn't always an easy thing to do, you see. But I try and enjoy life. Being able to do so means there's hope for me. Hope in the non-religious sense of the word. And who knows, maybe the end of the line isn't the end of the line.

      Enough... and back to the light-hearted. How are your ducks?

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    4. Manzi had a lot to say
      Hopefully her fingers are okay lol

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    5. She'll be fine
      Maybe sippin' some wine

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    6. Does she drink that?
      Where she is at

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    7. Only the best wines will do
      And I'll raise you a Scooby Doo!

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    8. You her wine buddy
      And not an old umm fuddy duddy

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  11. It seems I've always got so much hope, I can't imagine it ever running out. It really is what propels me forward each day. I hope you enjoy your stay on whichever star you choose to land on ;)

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    1. the Midnight Star where Lady Angelina kicks him out when he starts snoring ....

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    2. Thank you, Theresa. May you never run out of hope.
      Dezzy, behave!

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    3. I am, I am... but it ain't always easy... the force is too strong in me....

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  12. Ah, my wise friend. I needed to hear this reminder. You have impeccable timing. Also, I plan to slow down...a LOT... after this week for 10 yummy days. Oh the joy!!

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    1. I've been called many things but never wise. Oh could it be that I'm blushing now?

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    2. Blushing? My blue friend is blushing!! Does that mean you've turned... purple? You know purple is for royals. It's fitting.

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    3. Fitting? Oh don't make me blush even more!

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  13. Hope is a driver like no other
    Wakes one up from slumber
    Disoriented initially
    Vigorous eventually
    Star hops but still gets further

    Hank

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  14. Agreed, Blue. We need to slow down and enjoy what we have while we have. Things are taken from us in a blink of an eye. We must always cling on to hope even in our darkest times.

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  15. Yeah, ease off the throttle. Take in the scenery. Wait, you thought "busy equalled strength"? That's an interesting correlation. If you're making those parallels, maybe you definitely need to take a moment to reconnect with this world.

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  16. I do think hope fuels us. I think that without it we spiral out big-time. I've been on the spiral and know people who have completely spiraled out. I think just a little bit of hope might have saved them.

    Any time we're running around like a crazy person, what we end up with is... well, crazy. If it's all feeling chaotic, slow down, my friend. There is peace in the stillness.

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  17. Did the new school year start, Blue? How is it going? Are the colleagues behaving?

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    1. The new school year started in September. As for my colleagues, don't ask.

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    2. are we firing any of them this season? :)
      I'm finally done with the summer/autumn season, the book fair was last week, half of tha books at my publisher's boot were mine :) And now I'm onto the winter season work!

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    3. Tell your publisher I told you he should tell you you're entitled to a raise.

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    4. a raise of a blood pressure? Tension, stress, a raise in the emptiness of my wallet? :))) Tis true that I've never worked harder and got paid lesser than now.

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    5. It's an utter disgrace, is what that is.

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    6. it is an intergalactic unjustice! Please, wipe my tears!

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    7. I'll wipe your tears and whip their butts.

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    8. Remember: When you gotta go, you gotta go: CLICK!

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  18. Loved it. May your unchartered, new territories be filled with fun and adventure.

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    1. Thank you, Sandra. Hey, it's Wednesday.... Such a fun day!

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  19. stardate 11042015 -and the universe speaks as the oracle card is drawn...

    Hi Blue,

    Hope is believing beyond the known
    Hope is what keeps one strong
    Hope is is in a poem not yet written
    Hope is in a song not yet sung
    Hope is a lantern of light
    Hope is a word I carry in my soul
    Hope is the beat of a heart
    Hope is love and love is life
    Hope alone is hope...

    PS - Sometimes we know not the destination
    but, we need to carry on in the quest for
    enlightenment...let us carry our hope in
    our heart and go boldly into the unknown
    enjoying all the sweet moments between
    here and there in this wonderful sphere
    of life...

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    1. now for a song

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7rkgm1yGgbM

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    2. ps - stop and smell the roses Blue...

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    3. I can smell them already, True. All I need to do is close my eyes and go boldly where no Blue has gone before. I hear ya.

      Oh that's one great song!

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    4. Glad you enjoyed the song....now, lets go boldly where no Blue has gone before...a steamroller baby...haha - care for some wine...

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yqk2g4LliZM

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  20. Hope is a big part of living, at least I think it is. I've lived with a horrible depression for more than 30 years and it's always my hope that I'll have days that are better than others. Slowing down and enjoying the things that we do have is something that is hard to learn. I'm 45 years old and even though I used to hear, slow down, enjoy your life or it's really the small things that matter...it didn't really dawn on me what that really meant until lately. We all need to slow down and enjoy those around us while we and they are here. Because people are gone in a flash...one minute they are here and the next minute they might be gone. Life happens, you just have to be open enough to let it happen to you and enjoy it.

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    1. People are gone in a flash... Ain't that the truth, Mary? I'm also 45. Maybe we should start by calling ourselves '45 years young'. No? Hope lies within ourselves, Mary.

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    2. Mary, me too! There is always hope.

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    3. OMG for a second I thought Riot Kitty was asking you to marry her!

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  21. YES! Ignore the toxic ones, Blue Jedi.

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  22. So true, sir. I used to equate activity to productiveness and only now have realized it's almost the opposite. I need to slow down, if only not to crash and burn

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    1. Hey, look who is here. Sounds like a plan to me, Rooth. Don't crash and burn. We like you just the way you are.

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  23. I believe we will all be spiritual astronauts one day . . . :)

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    1. The big questions is... will be need helmets? (smile)

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  24. Love the reflections on life Blue ~ For me its time to slow down to enjoy nature, but never stopping to stay put as life is ever moving and changing ~

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    1. Good point. So, you would go with the flow.

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  25. Together, with hope, we cope. There be that treasure that be a sense of empathy. Stay true to Blue and mind yourself near Uranus.

    Gary

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  26. Hope is everything. Everything that makes us human needs to be based on hope. It's what keeps us from going mad, or giving up entirely. Most people can hang in there indefinitely so long as they have some little glimmer of hope to cling to. It makes all the difference.

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    1. It keeps us from giving up. Well put, Candice.

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  27. Wow. I read ALL that and the only thing on my mind is your bed (especially since I know where you sleep) hahahahahahahahahahaha.

    I'm so proud of you. Is that an appropriate thing to say?

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  28. couldn't agree more providing I don't have to put the brakes on when rolling down big hills on my bike!!!! Not quite sure I want my aeroplane to slow down either LOL.

    Hope is what gets you through the bad, the ugly & the mundane.............

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  29. It's so well written, and I'm pretty sure touches a point with everyone who heads on over here and gives it a read. :) I'm all about hope.

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    1. Thanks you, Rosey. So kind of you to say that.

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  30. stardate 11092015 - I saw a shooting star last night Blue...it was spectacular...How are you?

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  31. Sometimes travelling at slow speed is better. You can certainly see where you're going a lot easier. Trouble is, it's hard not to go fast!

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