MENTAL NOTE

"Though we cannot make our sun stand still, yet we will make him run."
Blue, resist the urge to use facebook. You can do it. Good luck.
Cats and dogs can be friends. So can cowboys and indians. So can we.
Why try to be the best when there's no hierarchy in heaven?

Monday, August 29, 2016

So Long, Mr. Wilder... You Cute, Available, Old-fashioned Guy Who Liked Horse Riding

Not a week has gone by these past few years without me wondering how Gene Wilder is doing. I found out five minutes ago. My favorite actor is dead and I know my damn letter came too damn late.


Yes, my friends (and enemies in the woods), just when I thought my chronic fatigue sucked big-time and I had every reason on this planet to feel sorry for myself, here comes nature, that ruthless son of a bitch, to remind me of my petty grievances. Pardon my Swedish. I'm a bit upset. Once again it makes perfect sense to me why we people, who live and die while it's barely long enough for a tree to fart, need someone to blame. No sooner had I closed my eyes than my Bollywood bride, who was sitting right next to me on my Bora couch, asked, "Did you know Gene Wilder passed away?" I opened my eyes and I knew I needed someone to blame.

It's a damn shame, is what that is. It's a damn, damn shame. Please don't say, "Such is life" like you're quoting meaningful poetry. Gene Wilder is dead and it's heartbreaking. It means something. Don't tell me "83 is a respectable age." What does that mean? There's no such thing as 'respectable' when it's you who is dying. Respectable is an illusion. Respectable is semantics. Respectable means zilch to you when your temperature is dropping like it needs to catch a plane and rigor mortis is taking over what used to be a breathing piece of wonder.

Gene Wilder was a piece of wonder. I knew that when I first heard his voice in The Woman in Red (1984), an uplifting movie that much to my regret (oh screw them all) very few people cared to like. Well, I did. I was a 14-year-old kid back then that somehow could relate to a middle-aged man who, on the big screen, was told by the most beautiful goddess he'd ever seen that he was cute, available, but couldn't ride a horse to save his life. Oh how I could relate. I remember sitting in that movie theater like it was yesterday. Of course, it really wasn't.

Sigh. What can I say? What can I say that means anything at all? Nature is brutal. Nature is a son of a bitch when even people like Gene Wilder get pushed off the proverbial cliff and die. Nature can go to hell, but of course that's the one thing it never does, and it makes me jealous, frustrated and sad. Only a couple of months ago did I finally write the one letter I'd been wanting to write for decades. In it, I found the courage to tell him how much he meant to me even though I fully realized we were as much a stranger to each other as money is to my wallet. And now the inevitable has happened, and it keeps happening time and again.

My grandfather died when he was 60. That's me 14 years from now. And the older I get, the more I find myself wondering if perhaps I was brainwashed as a kid into believing that everything happens for a reason. Now I suspect that absolutely nothing happens for a reason and that it's a human thing to frame reality the way we see fit. It soothes us. It makes us feel better about ourselves. It blinds us. It makes us feel more important than we really are. When I first heard Mr. Wilder's voice in that old movie theater, I felt a sense of hope that I'd lost when my grandfather left me behind on this earth and everyone assured me, like they were Omniscience Incarnate, that he was in a better place. I hope they guessed right. I hope Mr. Wilder is in a better place. Just don't say, "Such is life." It's like saying you don't care but in a respectable way.

I'll miss you.
And damn nature.

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88 comments:

  1. OMG - I just saw this on the news

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    1. I felt so sad to hear this news. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory was such a great movie as well The Woman in Red. I thought of your post Blue really I did. It is always sad when someone passes to the other side no matter what the age.

      I feel like finding one of his movies crawling up on my couch and watching it. A sad day Blue and gee I was already Blue.

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    2. I expected it and yet I'm speechless. I'm gonna take a nap and not remember.

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  2. I caught it earlier. Such a shame. I remember seeing him for the first time in Blazing Saddles. The man was hilarious. Actually, that was the second time - first was as Willy Wonka.
    There is a Heaven and I know he's there now, reunited with his Gilda.

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  3. My maternal grandmother died in my early teens and she was the only grandparent I really knew. I still miss her but understand that we will all leave this earth one day. And screw nature if it's pissing you off Blue. You don't owe it a damn thing. Be mad for as long as you need and get happy when you are well and ready. I found out earlier this evening Gene died by seeing a picture of him with his birth year to 2016. I was like, darn it! Thanks for sharing your honest grief and never going PC on us Blue.

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    1. Good morning Sheena-kay. I love your comment. I think you are great. My grandpa died when I was 7 and it hit me so hard I turned blue and never found my old color back. In a split second I realized nothing lasted forever, and that included me. I never really got over it.

      Thanks for not wanting to go pc on you.

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  4. It'a amazing he made it to be an octogenarian, but the world lost a great man

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  5. I heard it yesterday and immediately thought of you, Randy Mandy :( He was one of the last gentle souls in Hollywood, I hope winged ladies in red dance around him now somewhere in Heavens and Pryor is pulling a heavenly joke with him....

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    1. Heaven... sounds like an ego-centric human invention, but that would be my best guess. May I be wrong and 85% of all people be right.

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    2. what are you complaining, silly Blue, we're going to Hades, anyhows.... to rule it, of course....

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    3. Ah... of course. What was I thinking?

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    4. is Kelly LeBrock still alive?

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    5. Yep. Just don't go looking for her if you care about your eyes.

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    6. another case of Zelwegger, Kidman and Meg Botox Ryan?

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    7. Yes sir. Nicole, what have you done!

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    8. oh, Bullock too, she was freshly botoxed as well recently. Not to mention Courtney Cox, another of the 80's TV icons...

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    9. Say... it... ain't... SO!!!!! Sandy!

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    10. we should botox our gorgeous selves too, Blue, we ain't exactly young any more.... Although an Internet guy who came to fix my web recently did think I was 27... I gave him a candy... OK, I gave him two... possibly three....

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    11. I´m staying clear of anything that paralyzes me. What he came to give you your quick fix? Is that what you're telling me, Mister 27?

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  6. Like you, I think it's all chaos, random happenstance mating with indiscriminate tragedy at all times. Sixty is too young. Then again, 83 is too young. There's no right age, which is why I'm hoping for the singularity to come so that my consciousness seamlessly merges with the internet. Gene Wilder helped define my sense of humor. Everything he was in he was great. Of course Willy Wonka impacted my childhood, but also Blazing Saddles, Young Frankenstein and See No Evil Hear No Evil are ingrained within my psyche. As I quoted when he died, "There's no earthly way of knowing, which direction we are going," the man left a massive crater in our collective consciousness as he rocketed away into the stratosphere. He will be missed.

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    1. Thanks for yet another fantastic comment. I couldn't agree more, and that includes Wonka's quote.

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  7. It seems that we were just discussing Gene Wilder, as he was my favorite too and "Start the Revolution Without Me" was one movie that I saw repeatedly.

    I have recently been contemplating blog posting again, now that I've sucked all the goodness from summer. I was mulling over writing a post on how silly it is for young people to speculate about the feelings of old people because that is definitely something one has to experience before it can be talked about. They never get it right.

    I am nearly 4 years older than Gene so I feel I can write about old age. It seems that 80 is the magical demarcation line and beyond that, death is our friend and we live with bliss. (You asked if it was love and yes, it is love)

    I can comment about Gene's age but not the letter you wanted to write. Anything I could say would sound trite.

    Gene Wilder was a funny, funny man, who made people feel better about
    themselves.

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    1. Young people don't want to relate to the elderly nor are they able to do so. When two people have differing frames of reference, it's a given that they are inable to walk a mile in the elder person's shoes. It takes one to know one. But in a good way.

      Gene Wilder sure put a smile on my face. I just liked him, even if none of us knew him.

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  8. Yeah, it is ingrained in our brain at a young age, that everything happens for a reason like some script on a page. Pffffft to that shit. Now it does make us who we are bit by bit and lead our lives down a path, one that will ultimately bring forth nature's wrath. But in the end we decide or the odds take us for a shitty ride. He made some great films indeed. Silver Streak and See no evil, hear no evil were two other good ones that took seed.

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    1. They can keep that shitty ride, on a bus or otherwise haha! Silver Streak, See No Evil, Willy Wonka.... Loved them all, not because they were the best of movies but because they gave me such a great time.

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    2. That is what movies should do
      A great time through and through

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  9. He had always seem a serious funny man
    Seen his films count oneself as a fan
    He might get the ladies
    Might not be on his knees
    But not without him letting out his rants

    Hank

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    1. Hank!
      The Number One Poetry Tank!
      Hey, you're a fan, too...
      Well, Scooby Doo
      How do you do....
      Good to hear and good to know
      At the Blue Guy Show.

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  10. He was a great man and actor. It was sad that he is no longer with us.

    My favorite Wilder movie is The Frisco Kid.

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    1. I love that movie. It is very sad, all right.

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  11. This is a great tribute and makes me need to go out and see more than the one movie of his that I've seen.

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    1. Thanks. Just felt like speaking my mind.

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  12. There you go again, writing what I feel in my own heart. Could you be my long lost twin? All I can say is, "life is wild, " and Gene's artistry was wilder!!

    Bless you Blue, (smiles and hugs).

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  13. Amazing tribute for a great, talented man. RIP Gene.

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    1. I wish I could've made him young again, but there are limits to what a blue guy can do, Chrys.

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  14. Hey Blue,

    Despite your chronic fatigue, you, my esteemed buddy, post up a poignant tribute to an actor who will be sorely missed. Sorely missed yet never forgotten.

    Be well, Blue.

    Gary, Gary, nary contrary...

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    1. Gary, Gary, always flairy, never scary. Writing is easy, Gary, when the heart does the typing. Thanks for stopping by again. Yes, he'll be missed.

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  15. I just read it too and felt so sad by his passing....RIP gentle soul!

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    1. It's a sad fact of life that even the good ones need to go. Thanks for stopping by, Grace.

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  16. I'm sorry you're sad, Blue Moon, you saw me standing alone. Does your chronic fatigue have a name that isolates it from other types of chronic fatigue? I ask because my daughter has chronic fatigue. It was diagnosed when she was a young teenager. She refuses to admit she has it. Maybe the lack of rest is what makes her so cranky.

    Love,
    Janie

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    1. It's fatigue arising from chronic pulmonary sarcoidosis couple with a tad of neurosarcoidosis. I like the way you sing, Janie. Sorry to hear about your daughter's fatigue. I sure can relate. I know for a fact that chronic fatigue makes a person cranky... and blue.

      Hope you're doing fine.

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  17. He was awesome. I loved him in all his movies. It's so sad to hear he is no longer with us.

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  18. It is such a shame that Gene is gone. He was also one of my favourite comedians. This is a great post Blue! Thanks for sharing:-))

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    1. Hi Phil. He called himself a comic actor, someone wo didn't want to be on all the time. I loved his voice, perhaps a strange thing to say, but a fact nevertheless. Thanks and I'll stop by real soon.

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  19. It's plain to see he meant a lot to you. Excellent tribute, Blue.

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    1. He sure did. Thanks for reading my post, Mr. Silver Fox.

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  20. It's never long enough, Blue.

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  21. Such a sweet, talented, man. And if I'm correct, we both share the same favourite film - The Woman In Red. I shall watch it again later.

    I hope his beloved Gilda is waiting.

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    1. You are correct, Wendy, and I'm not surprised one bit.

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  22. Personally favored The Wizard of Oz vs Willy Wonka.
    On the contrary, Young Frankenstein is one of my favorite movies.
    I agree that nothing about death is respectable. No matter ones age, death hits hard to those living.
    Amazing comedian, very loved too.

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    1. Young Frankenstein is a classic, all right.

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  23. I was truly saddened too. More so by the fact that it didn't get a lot of media coverage like so many other stars do. I felt he deserved it.

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  24. We lost a legend, and if anything, it's just inspiring how many younger people actually know who he is. That he hasn't been lost on the current generation. Films like Young Frankenstein and Blazing Saddles, those never die.

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  25. hey, we're the same age. Who knew? :)

    I was sorry to hear the news about Gene Wilder. :(

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  26. What a terrible loss. It seems we are losing at least one great entertainer each year. In a world pushing trashy entertainers as us (like Kardashian's), it's makes the loss even worse :(

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    1. yes, without Robin Williams and Wilder, who have we been left with when it comes to true, kind-hearted comedians?

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    2. Hi Theresa. Yes, it's unreal, but we'd better believe it's pretty darn real. The Kardashian are entertainers? When did that happen?

      Well, Dez, there's always us, but I'm afraid we're in a league of our own.

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    3. this walrus is more of a sea world attraction than a comedian :))

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    4. Don't be so hard on yourself, Dezzzmester.

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    5. Dezzy, sadly there aren't many left. I think Tim Allen is one that I am glad is still here. There really aren't any others I can think of off the top of my head though :(

      Blue, they certainly aren't entertainers in my book, but the media sure does try to write them off in that category, eh?

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    6. I love Tim Allen hohohohooo! They aren't entertainers in my book. Heck, they're not even a friggin' footnote.

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    7. Thought of another- Tom Hanks. Where have all the good actors gone?

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    8. I give Sully, his new movie about the miracle on the Hudson, 4 stars out of 5. Excellent performance and finally a well-paced movie that doesn't last forever.

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  27. Do you listen to NPR at all? They did a re-broadcast of an interview Terry Gross did with him years ago. It was a pretty great tribute to an amazing man.

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    1. You bet I do. Don't laugh, but I download their podcasts, put them on a.... um.... CD and listen to them in my car. Don't tell anyone about the CD part. You may laugh now.

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  28. Te envio mi blog de poesias por si quieres darle un vistazo
    Gracias.
    http://anna-historias.blogspot.com.es/2016/09/vacaciones.html?m=1

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  29. Not much in life actually makes sense.

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  30. I think one of the cruelest things about his death, is that Alzheimers got to that beautiful, creative mind. I hate that and I loathe Alzheimers.

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