MENTAL NOTE

"Though we cannot make our sun stand still, yet we will make him run."
Blue, resist the urge to use facebook. You can do it. Good luck.
Cats and dogs can be friends. So can cowboys and indians. So can we.
Why try to be the best when there's no hierarchy in heaven?

Wednesday, February 8, 2017

The Purpose of Knowing

I should be asleep, but I guess I'm not. Whenever I find myself thinking way too much, I hear this voice inside of me laughing, "Blue, what the heck are you doing? It's pointless to think you'll ever understand. You never will. Don't be such a fool." Why won't I listen and just have some fun? I don't know. I guess some people never learn and I'm one of them.



I'm scared.
I eat my veggies,
but I know I'm gonna fly.
I have insurance, see my doctors,
but the end keeps drawing near.
I watch my favorite movies, try to escape
into the world of comics
and sometimes literature, too —
the kind that smart folks read and talk about,
too often to sound smart,
too often to pretend,
too often to stay sane —
but I know I'm gonna fly. 
I know it but I fail to understand.
(See, that's a problem.)
And no one else does, too.
Some think they do.
Some lie they do.
Some try to do.
I've seen people go, but I don't know
what that means
from THEIR point of view.
Some say there's glory in dying,
but that's because
they're still
awake.

I'm scared.
Don't call me foolish.
Foolish is a silly word.
It hurts the crying.
Don't you tell me,
"Heck, you're wasting all that time."
I'm alive now, so now is when to ponder.
Scared is living, too, you see?
I know it's pointless to even care
about a fate you can't escape.
I know that cliff will find its way to me
When I turn left,
so will it, too,
no matter where I hide. 
I know Miss Fisher's gone,
Mr. Wilder,
many others with no choice
but to call it a life. 
I know all of that.
I know, I know.
I KNOW!
And some would even say I'm smart.
But who cares what I know?
What is the purpose of knowing
When the knower
is about to
fly?

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Will I ever make it to Bora Beach? 


79 comments:

  1. Even knowing where you are going, dying is still a scary thing. This world is all we know. No matter how strong our faith, we still fear letting go of this life.
    But when we do, we'll do more than just fly!

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  2. Fly like Superman
    When one kicks the can?
    That would be neat
    Do we even have feet?
    Maybe just a ball of light
    Or some weird creature in the night
    Ponder away
    Will learn one day
    And then if you don't
    Care you won't
    For all will be dark
    As you take your final park
    When it comes, it comes to me
    Until then whatever happens we shall see

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    1. I've seen so many people kick the bucket these past few years that, you know, it makes you wonder how long you've got. Minor problem is... it makes a whole lot of things seem unimportant. How come we don't have that red cape? Beats being Snape!

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    2. Yeah, unimportant many things are
      And that we learned at our sand bar

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    3. The older we get, the less we've learned
      Except how to get our butt burned
      Ha!

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  3. The time will come
    But not of our own choosing
    Just have to remain calm
    Before it dims the lighting
    It comes fast
    Without one realizing!

    Hank

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    1. Go figure... one day we'll all stop blogging but our posts will still be out there. How weird is that, Hank?

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  4. We will all know what comes after death one day.

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    1. I hope you're right for knowing means you're still there to know things :)

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  5. Well, hopefully when it does one day become your turn to fly, it won't be like in Game of Thrones.

    "Make the bad man fly!"

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    1. Good point, fellas. Call me biased but I couldn't agree more haha!

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  6. I'm a thinker also. I have to constantly keep busy to get my mind on other things.
    I enjoy as the day winds down and all the pressures are gone.

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    1. That sounds pretty familiar to me, Kathy.

      Thanks for stopping by.

      Blue

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  7. You can take your trip to Bora beach..... sell your Ted Bakers but I doubt if Bora Beach is what you're looking for. You'll get sun burned and it will be painful and your lips will get all cracky and you won't be able to kiss. You will most likely get Montazuma's revenge and that will keep you in one room. When you sit on the beach, you'll get sand in your pants and that will not be much fun. The airline will probably lose your luggage and so you'll have no clothes or toiletries and a smooth-ass pickpocket will relieve you of your wallet and passport. It happens.

    You ain't going to fly either.

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    1. Won't be able to kiss? Say it ain't so! Will my blue lips be hot like a volcano, too? Sing along, Belva:

      She touched my hand what a chill I got
      Her lips are like a volcano that's hot
      I'm proud to say she's my buttercup
      I'm in love
      I'm all shook up
      Mm mm oh, oh, yeah, yeah!
      Mm mm oh, oh, yeah, yeah!
      I'm all shook up!


      Oh darn. Ses that's what you get when you're not thinking straight. It's the same when a person is smitten. The lips go, "Hello!" but the brain has a total meltdown. What... sand in my pants, too? Let me quote Darth Vader: "Nooooooooooooooo!"

      Yes? Oh crap! Now, I will first have to invent sand-resistant superpants to go with my sun-resistant um sun screen. Major bummer. And a smooth-ass pickpocket to cap it all?

      That settles it: I'm gonna pretend I'm the bridge that won'r budge. I'm not going anywhere. Thanks for the sound advice. So I guess I won't have to save up now.

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    2. She forgot the hundreds, yes hundreds, of wild dogs there that will take your food, pester you, maybe bite you, and give you many fleas. Fleas and sand in places that you don't want, how fun!

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    3. Oh and don't forget the piles of dog crap you have to watch out for. Better watch going barefoot in the sand.

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    4. Wild dogs? Really? How could I tell him when I didn't even know it myself. And fleas? Oh, I hate fleas and wild dogs on the beach can break his arm. They did mine, well one wild dog did. But he can have different color casts to go on that blue arm. I had 3 different colors..... apple green, yellow and purple. It's fun, like carnival time.

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    5. Sand-resistant superpants? I think they've already been invented and I'm sure I saw them at Costo in the Pharmacy Dept.

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    6. Nasty all around. Yep, there are maaaaaaaany a wild hound.

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    7. Dear Lord! Now, I'll need that pill to keep me awake. Where's that magic pill?

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    8. I know that magic pill. It starts with the letter "T."

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    9. Pat is most likely really telling the truth about wild dogs. Now I remember all the wild dogs that hung out in the forests along the beach. I ran into a bunch of them once and I tried to remain very calm and just walk away. I heard they can smell fear, so Blue, just remain calm, don't sweat when you run into the wild dogs.

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    10. Truth it is. As saw it on some guy's why he'd never go back post. There were dogs from coast to coast. Not as wonderful as they make it seem in the whole pamphlet dream

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    11. Wouldn't to be bitten in the good ole nachos.... :)

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  8. Ah Blue - you are a "thinker" I know the feeling, sometimes I lie awake thinking about the mysteries of life. Pondering death is scary because so much is unknown. I do believe in an afterlife and I have good reasons for believing. I have been pondering this for over a week now. It just makes me a stronger believer in living in the now as much as you possibly can. Let's be honest death is the saddest part of the journey in life.

    Sometimes, I feel I've wasted time on dreams that never came true...it makes me feel sad inside..like now as I am crying.

    Bora is the ultimate beach destination, but I am happy just sitting on a small beach on a glorious sunny day wherever I can. It's about the moments I guess, take comfort where you can.

    and somewhere Lois said to Superman let's fly the heavenly sky...

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    1. Don't cry, True Blue, unless those tears can do THIS.

      In which case I could do with a bottle. A small one, of course. I'm not greedy.

      Oh I remember sitting in our local movie theater back in 1978. It was just me, eight-year-old Blue with his grandpa Harry, who stated snoring the moment the lights went out and I was spellbound by that wonderful movie, the only real Superman movie ever made, at least in my book. That one was about the characters, not the special effects. I actually believed he could fly, and I still do when I'm watching it for the umpteenths time.

      I'm so looking forward to a sunny day. It always makes me a lighter shade of blue.

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    2. Blue, those tears are magical tears. You need to find the spirit of that bird to bring forth some healing. I do think tears can heal in a way. They cleanse the soul from debris.

      Superman is other worldly so I would naturally be attracted to his aura.

      Well, Blue get off your couch and fly my way and I will buy the first bottle ;)

      I am dreaming, I am dreaming in a blue deja vu...

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    3. Here's a sing-along with True and Blue and Pat

      Fly me to the moon and let me play among the stars
      Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars
      In other words, hold my hand
      In other words, baby kiss me (with blue cracky lips)
      Fill my heart with song
      Let me sing forevermore
      You are all I long for, all I worship and adore
      In other words, please be true
      In others words, I love you.

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    4. I love that song. I absolutely love it.

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    5. that is some song, I am singing a long

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    6. Ps Blue how are you? Still pondering one of the greatest mysteries of all time?

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    7. Because it will always be there.

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    8. I will have to google that.,.we all cry for help sometimes

      I get by with a little help from my friends

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    9. Why is this up here and not down there the universe is playing tricks on me like in my dream last night

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  9. I don't know when I'll fly Blue, but lately I've taken comfort in understanding more about myself & others. Not sure if that's knowing. But I have been appreciating the life I have more & more.

    I hope the knowing gives you some comfort & that when you fly you soar with eagles, or angles, or space ships, or with what ever or whoever your heart desires.

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    1. Yes, that's knowing, too. Being appreciative is so underrated these days. I can just look at the sky and feel alive. I'm happy to still be alive. The older I get, the more I realize I couldn't care less about a career (which I don't have) or politics or reading important books... I just look up at the sky or find myself sitting in a park and I know I'm all right. It puts a smile on my face, AlleyCat. Do you know what I mean?

      Thanks for the kind comment.

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    2. I do know what you mean Blue. Give me a sunset/sunrise & even if I don't have time to just sit & watch it, I feel my heart soar & my soul instantly happier!!!

      Thank you Blue for sharing your life with me. X

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  10. I don't think about death much. I know where I'm going when I die, so I have no fear.

    Love,
    Janie

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    1. That's the kind of certainty I'm unfamiliar with, Janie, but I'm happy for you. No fear... How about that?

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    2. At least you're thinking about it. Thinking can lead to certainty.

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  11. I used to think about death quite a bit, but not so much these days. When it happens, it happens. I just hope I have all of my crap sorted out and together before I go.

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  12. Is it bad that I like how you think of death like flying? It sounds almost romantic. Or freeing. Yeah, freeing. Freeing us from the pain. Isn't that nice? Better change that line of thinking and focus on the here and now, huh, or I'll get myself in trouble, Blue!

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    1. If only it were romantic, Elsie. :)

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    2. I was thinking of you the other day, Blue. I was at work..I know of all places...at work. But you just popped into my head. Hope you're doing okay.

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    3. I'm so tired, Elsie. So damn tired. That's why I've been such a bad blogging buddy, no visiting you and everyone else. I need that magic pill.

      At work?

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  13. I agree with Elsie. Flying sounds incredibly freeing and that is one thing to look forward to - that freedom. What fear is left afterward? I'm also one that stays up late at night thinking about things that don't need thinking about

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    1. You're a thinking, too, huh? Well, I'm not surprised.

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  14. It's something we will all know someday.

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  15. WOW...that is a powerful poem and so thought provoking as well.

    I think that the "unknown" can be scary for sure. I envy those that have "no fear".

    I seldom think about death with anything more than a passing thought but those random wisps of realization that the reality of life is at some point death. In the last few months I have lost a number of friends and acquaintances and it adds an extra layer of truth to that thought.

    If only I could give you some wonderfully deep and inspiring thought or give you total peace of mind, I would.... but sadly it is beyond my abilities. **sigh**

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    1. It beyond everybody's abilities. :) Thanks for the great comment, Cheryl.

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  16. I feel like I should add something profound, but I got nothing. I'm with you. But I don't wanna be. To curb my thinking, (apart from my faith, of course, which is a mighty powerful reason not to think like we do, but we do anyway)I sometimes remind myself of this crass yet wonderful saying: If you have one foot in the past and one in the future, you'll only piss on the present.

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    1. That sure is a line to be remembered, Lynda.

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    2. I'm not one for remembering lines (why I gave up trying to be an actress), but this one really stuck.

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  17. You're not alone. I'm a thinker too. Especially at night. I think and I think and I think and I get mad at myself for not shutting off my mind but it won't stop. Ever. Death is something I think about often. I am scared of it. I have faith and I believe in God but I still get scared. So, you're not alone. I wish I had awesome words of wisdom or inspirational, thought provoking advice but alas, I do not. What I do have are hugs. Virtual though they are. Be well, friend! :)

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    1. I guess we're scared because it's called faith, not truth. Thanks for sharing that Yvonne. I appreciate it. :)

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  18. Hm. I somehow missed this post when it was first posted!

    Every day we're alive, we're one day closer to death. It's like The Doors said, "No one here gets out alive."

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    1. The Doors also said "break on through to the other side"

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    2. John Lennon said, Won't you please help me.

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    3. the Beatles said, Help, I need somebody!

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    4. They sure did, but it was Lennon who wrote the song. It was a cry for help. I heard him talk about the song in an interview.

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    5. See note above the universe has decided to post my response further up.. lol

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    6. Haha! I was wondering how that happened.

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  19. Maybe it's because I worked for many years in the funeral industry, or maybe it's because I'm not a worrier but I don't fear death or flying. I know there are people that worry and think and don't know how to stop it (my sister is like that) and then there are people like me that don't stress about much. But Blue, you certainly make a lot of people stop and think!

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    1. Your sister and I have a lot in common. How come I'm not a bit more like you?

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  20. I'm scared too, Grumpy. I think the most sentimental and empathetic souls are. They say the broken are the most evolved, you know...

    As Woody Allen rightly said, "I'm not scared of dying, I just don't want to be there when it happens."

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    1. What a great comment from my dear friend Jules. Great quote, too. That about sums it up, yeah. I just don't want to be there.

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  21. Good sir Blue,

    Thus, it has taken me ages to finally arrive at your site. You truly understand how exhausting it can be to seek the momentum to actually formulate some words.

    On the other side
    You sense the tide
    You take that ride
    You need not hide
    For you have flied
    And you have sighed
    For you will see
    Ever so gently
    Beyond this dimension
    A loving attention
    A Bora Bora above
    Immersed in the sands of love.

    A good weekend to you
    This be true.

    Gary, Gary, nary contrary....

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    1. Thanks, Gary. Oh I understand exhaustion like I invented the damn thing. That's why I've sort of been the worst blogger ever, not visiting my friends, you know. It happens.

      A good weekend to you, too
      May you find a magic blue suede shoe

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