MENTAL NOTE

"Though we cannot make our sun stand still, yet we will make him run."
Blue, resist the urge to use facebook. You can do it. Good luck.
Cats and dogs can be friends. So can cowboys and indians. So can we.
Will you ever reach Bora?

Thursday, April 12, 2018

All Time High


ALL TIME HIGH

I cried in the fall of 1990,
when the love of my life said she had to go. 
I never spoke to her again.
I cried on New Year's Eve of 1990,
raising my glass, pretending I was not alone.
I cried in the spring 1996,
standing in the doorway of my girlfriend's room,
saying goodbye forever.
I cried in 2005, driving on the highway
past what used to be my home.
I cried when my grandmother died in August 2008.
Her name was Sophia.
I cried when I wrote a post about Joni Mitchell's River
You may remember.
I cried when my mother's cat and life companion
died in March 2018.
I will cry again.
Who will cry when I'm gone?
Who will really care? 
I'm almost crying now, 
listening to John Barry's All Time High
I don't know why. 
Time, I guess. 
It's time saying goodbye.
Time is killing me
and I don't know
why.

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54 comments:

  1. “Of all losses, time is the most irrecuperable for it can never be redeemed.” -Henry VIII

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  2. Oh Blue.
    I weep too. For losses, for injustices. And despite never having met you would mourn if you left.
    But you have me wondering who would shed a tear at my absence. And why.

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    1. That's so sweet of you to say that. Thank you.

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  3. Hi Blue

    I am forever a weeping willow
    Tears always falling on my pillow
    crying for the world, for you and I
    I believe we have wings and can fly
    To cry shows we are human and care
    No one said life would ever be fair
    maybe, i’ve cried a million tears
    tears of joy & sorrow through the years
    I would miss you at the blue guy show
    our poems made my heart grow
    you made me feel special it’s true
    If you leave i’ll be more blue
    Our lives are measured by time
    It’s not over till the last rhyme
    Don’t you dare give up
    Drink in love, fill your cup
    Who, would miss you? I would Blue
    Gee, now i’m Crying it’s True...
    We still need to get to the bora shore
    drink fancy umbrella drinks, live more

    Come meet me for a drink, i’m buying
    Love ya Blue....

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    1. To cry shows we are human, alright --
      That we feel the pain that's growing
      Like a balloon then poof it's gone
      That's what crying can do, day or night.
      I rarely cry so those moments are easy to recall
      Often it's music that makes those tears fall
      You're right, we're talking years
      Good thing we also recall many cheers
      So where's that Bora drink, umbrellas too,
      Let's can the tears:
      Here's to you.

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    2. Ps I just listened to All Time High. Music does stir the emotions for now I am crying. I know you said to can the tears... so...

      Cheers

      To Us!

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    3. Why can't we go back in time and start anew?

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    4. If only we could Blue, imagine all we would do. I guess we have to live in the now. There are no dress rehearsal for life. It’s live all the time,

      Now, about those umbrella drinks..,

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    5. Rain or shine...
      Umbrella drinks sound mighty fine

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  4. There is still compassion, still love, and someone will care. And they will cry.
    We care Blue and we would miss you.

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  5. I cry looking at my baby grandson, knowing all the heart ache life brings, and that someday he will be like my son, and not need me anymore.

    I'll take a glass of jammy Zin and say Salut to you, my friend.

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    1. And not need you anymore? Oh I hope not, Bijoux. I hope not. One jammy Zin coming up.

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  6. “Where there’s life, there’s hope.” - Edgar Rice Burroughs

    Even when things feel so blue, Blue, we'll always have each other.

    Elsie

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  7. Sometimes you just need to give yourself the permission to do so. Or I'll grant you the permission if that's what's needed :)

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  8. so it was my precious birthday yesterday, April the 12th, and you publish a poem on crying on that glorious celebratory event? How positively scandalous. Not that it wasn't a cryworthy day...

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    1. I saw your name on my calendar but of course it didn't occur to me it was April 12. Happy belated birthday, Dezzzzmeister!

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  9. Oh, you'd definitely be missed, never fear!

    As soon as I saw this post's title the song entered my mind. I never felt it was particularly sad, though. Is there a specific memory that concerns this song?

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    1. This song reminds me of better days. The instruments, the vocal arrangement, the emotion put into the song... I hear the first bar and I'm instantly transported back in time.

      Thank you for your kind words, Mr. Silver Fox.

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  10. Things sure can get down
    Surely creating a frown
    Never easy when a a pet goes
    Even miss them biting toes
    Things may pile up
    May overflow the cup
    But have to carry on
    Always a new dawn

    At least until we croak
    Then just darkness for each bloke lol

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  11. You've touched more lives and have more people that care than you know.
    Hugs

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  12. Hank will cry whenever not in time
    Bad keeping others waiting in line
    Being early
    Will only be
    Rspecting others' time without binds

    Hank

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    1. That makes perfect sense to me, HAnk. Respect is key.

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  13. There are definitely times in our lives that make us cry. We can only hope that there are more times in our lives that make us smile and make us happy to balance it all out.

    I would miss you if you weren't here anymore. That's the truth.

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    1. So kind of you to say that, Mary. Thanks you. Here's to more love and joy in our lives.

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  14. Blue, I know you have touched my life! I am so grateful that I have got to know you in blog land. These words are so touching. Makes you think! It's so important for us to live in the now and make everyday count! Big Hugs!

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    1. I love those big hugs of yours. You're the real deal. Honest and full of life. And... I love your style. I mean, those paintings of yours are fantastic.

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  15. Your words are very touching and makes one think!

    But I'm sorry about the tears ... but did you know crying "makes nine out of 10 people feel better, reduces stress, and may help to keep the body healthy" read more here if you wish
    https://www.independent.co.uk/life-style/health-and-families/features/how-crying-can-make-you-healthier-1009169.html

    Hoping you feel better soon, sending positive thoughts to you.

    All the best Jan

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    1. The thing is... I rarely cry. I'm always blue but no tears whatsoever except for the times mentioned in my post. It's the weirdest thing.Thanks for the link and your words of kindness. They are much appreciated.

      Blue

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  16. Oh Blue - sorry to hear you are feeling so blue. Music makes me cry frequently. Some times a good cry is the best way to let out all the sadness. Biggest (((((Hugs))))))

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  17. Life is full of tears, isn't it? Hope you can trade those sad ones for joy ones. Hugs!

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    1. Good idea. Trading the sad ones for joy ones.

      Good to hear from you again.

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  18. You cry 'cause you feel, you feel 'cause you care, by default many will cry when you are gone, but wait, stay in the moment then you won't worry about a thing, or so says many a reggae'er (is there such a word)

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    1. That makes perfect sense to me, but you can't help but wonder sometimes. Thanks.

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  19. Cry if you must as its good to vent one's emotions ~ I cry whether I am happy or sad ~ Enjoy the rest of the week Blue ~

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  20. Hi Blue

    Have a nice weekend! Do something special that brings you joy!

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  21. Hi Blue
    It’s True
    Tell me tell me
    How are you?

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    1. Blue is doing fine
      Like a bottle of aging wine :)

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  22. What a caring man you are, Blue . . . :)

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    1. Not unlike you, Eddie. what a kind thing to say.

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  23. Read it again, Blue.
    Seems you are very blue at present.
    Hope things get better for you . . . . :)

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    1. I was a darker shade of blue
      And still no Bora shoe...
      Just work and no play
      Night or... um... Wednesday ;)

      Thank you, Eddie

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  24. oh you. you will be missed. i know i will though i only know you through these words. sometimes i think life is a trap. and i think that maybe if i went back in time, some things will be different now? but i think again, and i'm convinced it might just be a different kind of shit. perhaps we are all exactly where we're meant to be. i'm sorry, Blue.

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