MENTAL NOTE

"Though we cannot make our sun stand still, yet we will make him run."
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Friday, June 21, 2019

Less



LESS

In less than a year I'll be 50 —
That means absolutely nothing
To somebody else, but it does to me:
I'll be obsolete soon,
A burden that I can't carry,
An ugliness that can bear no fruit.
In less than a year the ground on which I walk
Will feel different and laughter will fill the air with
A joke that no one gets but me,
Silly me who hates that victim card,
But what do you do when time is running out
And no one will remember you but you—
Until you don't?

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46 comments:

  1. Bah, the older the age you hit
    The more you can say, "I'm too old for this shit."

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    1. Lethal Weapon! When masculinity wasn't said to be toxic!

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  2. I just turned 49 and I am giddy, happy and full of joy. Who cares if no one remembers me. No one has a memory that lasts past too many generations anyway (with a few exceptions). I am just delighted to be alive and loving each and every day while I'm here. :)

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    1. It's good to be alive. There's no doubt about that, Rosey.

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  3. I left 50 behind more than a decade ago. And care not. Nor do I want to be remembered.
    None of which is helpful to you.
    Sorry, but I am with Pat of the Hatts today.

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  4. Gosh, Blue, I'd settle for 50 again willingly. In October I shall be a three quarter of a centurion. Slowing down a little alas, but the oldest swinger in town . . . or not . . lol

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    1. I hear ya, Eddie. Minor problem, though.... The men in my family don't get that um... experienced. Ha ha.... I almost said old, but you know I didn't, my friend. You don't want my 50, I assure you. And since I like you so much, I'm gonna keep it, too. Ha ha!

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    2. This guy seem so sum it up. A guy called Fred Wedlock who lived locally had a hit with this a number of years ago. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0sOPRIdY0ns

      lol

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    3. When your barber takes a little less time each week.... Ouch!

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  5. I hit fifty a while ago. You won't be obsolete! Just closer to senior citizen discounts even though you still feel like a twenty-something.

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    1. Mentally, I feel like I'm still 25. Just with a truckload of experience. Physically, I'm much older than half a century. Thank you for trying to cheer me up, Alex, but the thing is that the men in my family die young. My health is going down the drain, too. All we can do is play the best game with the cards we were dealt.

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  6. 50 is the new 60


    wait a minute.

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  7. hmm, I thought your birthday was on 6/14 all this time! In any case Blue I wish you a happy birthday and of course I care. Will any of us be remembered?

    I saw a beautiful double rainbow tonight a masterpiece in the sky. That is my gift to you blue all the joys of a rainbow.

    50 isn't old...it's just a number...how do you feel in your heart?

    Love always Blue from True

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    1. It is on June 14, True. Two more decades and I'm dead meat. Not only do the men in my family die young, as you know my health is a problem, to say the lwast. Do the math, Blue. I know 50 sounds young, but it isn't in my family. It's sad but true.I love being alive.

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    2. How about a song?

      https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7smZgWQ9_I

      sing with me Blue ..Living in the moment...

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  8. Well, I could have been your babysitter . . . You know what helps me feel better? I could probably outrun 75% of women younger than me. And I'm not a runner. Chew on that!

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    1. Chewing as I type this. Thank you for trying to cheer me up.

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  9. You are a young one! I'll be 62 this year. You still have plenty of life left in you! I do have to say though every decade we "welcome" the aches and pains and slowness become a bit more prevalent. It will be a good time for you! Just take it as it can and enjoy it!

    betty

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    1. The thing is, betty, that the men in my family die young.

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    2. Many of the women in my family have lived to be quite old. It makes me nervous. I don't want to be some doddering old fool in a nursing home. I'm already a doddering old fool in my own home. It can only get worse.

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    3. Few things ever get better, Janie. Unless we like wrinkles.

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  10. I read your replies to comments so I understand a bit better how you feel. I'm going to be 50 on my next birthday too. I keep thinking that I won't live past 60 because all of my aunts and uncles passed away before they were 60. My mom and her parents all passed away when they were 61 and 62. so I totally get what you're saying. All we can do is try to enjoy our lives while we are here.

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  11. And no one will remember you but you—
    Until you don't?

    It gets frightening when one is at the cross-roads knowing and seeing the signs of impending destruction. It can be impacting on health and memory. What were given through the years were being taken away until the ending came with the debilitating dementia!

    Hank

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    1. So true. Hank! The one and only poetry tank. What a pleasant surprise.

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  12. I am 60 and it makes me feel bitchy. It's gotten to my head: I might as well be dead. ;-)

    Love,
    Janie

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  13. Sorry to hear the "F" word is making you feel bluer than blue! I'm approaching it too. You will not be obsolete - like a fine wine or whiskey, you are growing in value!!! Totally agree 50 is the new 40 or 30 or what ever! I know one has to prepare for the inevitable, but hell, we both could get hit by a bus today. Don't give the number more credit than it's worth. X

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    1. May that evil bus not hit us today :)

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    2. Indeed! I survived the day :-) how about you?? :-)

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    3. Still in one piece! But um... are you blogging again or pondering the idea of blogging again?

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  14. The best thing to do is try to enjoy our lives while we are here...

    All the best Jan

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  15. Aging like fine wine Blue... :)

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  16. Happy Belated Birthday, Blue! I'll be 40 on my next birthday and I get what you're saying about young deaths in the family. Nobody but my aunt made it alive out of their 40's on my dad's side. He was the youngest to go at 40, then my grandma at 45, and my uncles in their late 40's. Needless to say, I'm a little freaked out about my next birthday, especially with my health issues, but I refuse to wallow in the what ifs and just freaking love every day I'm blessed to wake up and see another day. I don't need to be remembered by anyone but my kids, and I hope that they will always remember me as a good soul.

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    1. Dahlink, if you die before me I will kill you :)

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    2. @Theresa - Thanks! I'm 49 and counting. I was waiting for you to show up because you once told me about your health issues. I knew you'd understand. Anyway, here's to beating the odds. Bottoms up.

      @Dez - No, not that bottom. Behave yourself.

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  17. I'm scared too, I was 40 last year, wasn't pleasant at all. But I've never expected to live long, so I feel I could pass any day... tomorrow, in a month, in ten years? Best not to think about it and just have sex... or an ice cream....

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    1. Or both. Good to know you're still around. So... what's your favorite flavor? Yes, I'm talking about ice-cream. You're, how do I put this nicely... incorrigible.

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