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Monday, September 21, 2020

Thank You, Bollywood Princess

It is with sadness that I had to say goodbye to my Bollywood Princess, now ex-wife, on September 20, 2020. 

As I type this, I realize that eight years ago to the day we were married by the most boring officiant imaginable, yet believing our bond would stand the test of time. 

It didn't.

I won't bore you with the details. All I can tell you now is that I'm about to start a new chapter in my life. The future's not set. There's no fate but what we make for ourselves. Now, who said that? And might I add, somewhat less eloquently, "though it might hurt like a mother." 

Will I be blogging again? I don't know. I feel kind of numb. I've been feeling this way a long, long time. But, who knows... clean slates may invigorate those who dare to start anew. 

What I do know is that it has not been easy. Not on me, and certainly not on Angie ever since I dropped the bomb in December. I hope she's going to come out of this mental ordeal stronger than before (I know she's well on her way). I certainly wish her all the best in the world. 

Thank you for being there when I could barely walk or lift a spoon to feed myself. Thank you for your righteousness and your refusal to give up. Thank you for your final words: Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna. I'm sorry for not wanting to grow old with you. I truly am.

Blue


30 comments:

  1. Blue, I'm really sorry to hear that. No matter the situation, it's heartbreaking. Prayers for you.
    And the quote is from The Terminator. I believe both one and two.

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  2. I wish you both the best through this process and that you'll both come out stronger in the end!

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  3. ((((Blue)))) So sorry!! Tough year 2020 for you in so many ways! Please do pop in every now and then to let us know that you are trying to heal and trying to live, okay??? Please take care of yourself!!!!

    betty

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    1. I promise. Yes, 2020 is not one to remember... Thanks, Betty.

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  4. The hardest thing ever, letting go of happily ever after. I'm so sorry and I hope you do still continue blogging at least to let everyone know you're ok.

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  5. I'm so sorry to hear this. I know it's hard and it's hurtful. I hope the paths you both choose brings sunlight and joy as you start new life chapters.

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  6. I'm so sorry to hear that things didn't work out. Your wish that your ex comes out stronger in the end shows your true character. You're a good man, Blue. Keep it at, and please don't ever leave us forever in blog land. We missed your blue presence!

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  7. Not easy at all. I am sorry to read it, sorrier that you are going through it, and hope that you do blog at least occasionally.

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  8. Sure a Terminator in there with the terminated. Sorry to hear that it didn't work out.

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  9. Starting over is never easy and either is letting go. They are both painful. I am sorry you couldn't work it out. Broken relationships are always painful.

    I hope you decide to stay, I will miss you

    love from afar maybe, someday we will find that wishing star that makes our dreams come true.

    PS - Thank you for all the smiles :)

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    1. We'll stay in touch, True. I'm not going anywhere.

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  10. Ta-ta to Angelina. Ah, those were the days, my friend, she thought they'd never end.... Wait, what, you told her it is kaput between the two of you ahead of holidays? You is so naughty, Blue, I swear you is... hundred Hail Marys should redeem you, methinks.... In other news, she might now find someone who will let her sleep instead of snoring all night long like certain someone here present... and I don't mean Mongo the Intergalactic Padishah. How is Mongo, the poor orphan now? When are we hittin' the town to celebrate your brand new bachelorness?

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    1. Yes, it was me. A hundred may not cut it but I'll give it a try. I snore like a boar... Mongo is doing fine, actually lost a couple of pounds. (Mongo, not me.) No, am not celebrating any day soon BUT it's good to hear from you again.

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  11. Aww Blue. Sorry to hear this. I hope the new chapter brings peace, love & laughter when the healing begins & the numbness wears off. X

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  12. I'm so sorry. May you find peace and forgiveness. And as you begin your new normal, may growth and self-awareness lead you to your happiness. Please be in touch, Blue.

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  13. I'm sorry to hear this. Divorce isn't easy. Hopefully you'll both end up happier.

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  14. I'm sorry to hear this, Blue. It speaks volumes about you that you wish the best for her. I hope you each find peace in your hearts soon.

    Warmly,
    Elsie

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    1. So kind of you to say that, Elsie. It's easier to say goodbye to someone you don't like.

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